Darren-5-0
July 8th, 2009, 07:52 AM
ok, i know this is my first post but i really think i may have a bit of a problem here, it has been going on for ages now and i just need to try and get it sorted, but first i need to know what is actually happening, so if anyone knows, please say.
there is something you need to know about me... i am a bit like bree van de kamp, appearance is everything and i don't like to show any signs that i am not in control, because i can't stand pity. so, i haven't shared this with anyone and i keep all these feelings locked in the back of my head, which doesn't help either, i suppose. anyway, i think the main problem with me was that i developed a slight obsession over a celebrity, which seemed to grow and grow until i couldn't control it. tied in with that, there was also the constant pressure of school (GCSEs) and also the fact that my sporting career seemed to be going down the drain.
everything seemed to fall apart about a week or two ago. i wouldn't get out of bed and, as stupid as this may sound, just lay there crying all day. my body refused to sleep. there were periods i may have went up to 2 days without sleeping, then i could only sleep for a couple of hours. my appetite went completely. if there's something you've got to know about me... my appetite never goes, not even when i'm physically sick. for ages i have just had no interest in doing anything. i didn't want to talk to anyone, i didn't want to train for my sport. i could barely bring myself to get dressed. i would just sit all day thinking about this problem which i really need to get rid of.
the situation has fluctuated since last week. there have been periods where i have been ok and periods where i have been awful. when i see a picture of the celebrity (who i really don't want to say) i burst into tears for no reason. it's uncontrollable. i would get mini panic attacks. for example, when i was out for dinner last week i had to go to the toilets because i felt a bit weird, then i broke down into tears. i have been reading up on nervous breakdowns and i am pretty certain i haven't had one but i think i may be heading that way if i don't get sorted. admittedly, reading all the symptoms of a nervous breakdown, i have experienced most over the past week (i haven't written down *everything* in this post, you see), but they haven't been severe and i want to know if anyone has advice. sorry for such a long post this has just been really tearing me up...
thanks in advance
there is something you need to know about me... i am a bit like bree van de kamp, appearance is everything and i don't like to show any signs that i am not in control, because i can't stand pity. so, i haven't shared this with anyone and i keep all these feelings locked in the back of my head, which doesn't help either, i suppose. anyway, i think the main problem with me was that i developed a slight obsession over a celebrity, which seemed to grow and grow until i couldn't control it. tied in with that, there was also the constant pressure of school (GCSEs) and also the fact that my sporting career seemed to be going down the drain.
everything seemed to fall apart about a week or two ago. i wouldn't get out of bed and, as stupid as this may sound, just lay there crying all day. my body refused to sleep. there were periods i may have went up to 2 days without sleeping, then i could only sleep for a couple of hours. my appetite went completely. if there's something you've got to know about me... my appetite never goes, not even when i'm physically sick. for ages i have just had no interest in doing anything. i didn't want to talk to anyone, i didn't want to train for my sport. i could barely bring myself to get dressed. i would just sit all day thinking about this problem which i really need to get rid of.
the situation has fluctuated since last week. there have been periods where i have been ok and periods where i have been awful. when i see a picture of the celebrity (who i really don't want to say) i burst into tears for no reason. it's uncontrollable. i would get mini panic attacks. for example, when i was out for dinner last week i had to go to the toilets because i felt a bit weird, then i broke down into tears. i have been reading up on nervous breakdowns and i am pretty certain i haven't had one but i think i may be heading that way if i don't get sorted. admittedly, reading all the symptoms of a nervous breakdown, i have experienced most over the past week (i haven't written down *everything* in this post, you see), but they haven't been severe and i want to know if anyone has advice. sorry for such a long post this has just been really tearing me up...
thanks in advance