Gah! What's wrong with me?

[Raize]

I was doing fine. Perfectly fine. I've gotten really interested in 3D art, so I've been messing with that. Along with that, I've been looking at programs for it (can't afford Maya)

Then I look at this ONE program, and I go "Wow, I can't learn this!" and now I'm depressed. AFTER ONE THOUGHT.

It makes perfect sense though! The program used text, and the programs companies use don't. You can bend and twist things without typing in complicated numbers and such.

So why is it so hard to convince myself it's all ok? I KNOW it is, but *bam* the depression doesn't want to leave now. Why'd it drop so suddenly!? I hate it!!! It does this all the time! 1 tiny thought will send me spiraling down! WHY?!

[derkderpderp]

Hey dude,erm,this is just a hunch,but im sure there must be something else troubling you,something big-an underlying problem.
I suggest you check/analyse the depths of your mind and feelings,figure out whats wrong,and im sure everybody on VT including myself will be able to help you more once we know the root of the problem.

Also,i have a question-have you ever gotten depressed over something you see as trivial before?

Good luck dude.pm me if u want to talk.

[Raize]

I've been told that before, but I can't find anything. I know it's easy to blame my parents, but that doesn't make any sense. (as they're the first things to pop in my mind) I'm not being abused, I've never been abused. They just do normal parenty things.

And I have, I do it a lot. Today is a good example. I was out driving, and I went at a yellow arrow to turn. My mom told me I can't do that without looking first, and I got all depressed over it. It was only a small mistake, I know to stop now, absolutely no reason to be depressed but it happened anyway.

[Kale]

I was doing fine. Perfectly fine. I've gotten really interested in 3D art, so I've been messing with that. Along with that, I've been looking at programs for it (can't afford Maya)

Then I look at this ONE program, and I go "Wow, I can't learn this!" and now I'm depressed. AFTER ONE THOUGHT.

It makes perfect sense though! The program used text, and the programs companies use don't. You can bend and twist things without typing in complicated numbers and such.

So why is it so hard to convince myself it's all ok? I KNOW it is, but *bam* the depression doesn't want to leave now. Why'd it drop so suddenly!? I hate it!!! It does this all the time! 1 tiny thought will send me spiraling down! WHY?!

Diagnose this shit like Dr. Phil:

Sounds like you got a typical case of low self-esteem. Remedies include:


Exercise
Meeting new friends
Getting a new girlfriend/boyfriend/both at the same time/more than one at the same time
Trying new things that you normally wouldn't do
Going out to clubs/parties (if you're too young to go to a bar or club)


Side-effects of these medicines may include:


People being attracted to you
A new wardrobe/overall look
Better grades, better chances of success
Impress your boss
Impress your teacher
Overall general down-to-earth genuine HAPPINESS


Do not take these if you are both nursing or pregnant.

[Raize]

Diagnose this shit like Dr. Phil:

Sounds like you got a typical case of low self-esteem. Remedies include:


Exercise
Meeting new friends
Getting a new girlfriend/boyfriend/both at the same time/more than one at the same time
Trying new things that you normally wouldn't do
Going out to clubs/parties (if you're too young to go to a bar or club)


Side-effects of these medicines may include:


People being attracted to you
A new wardrobe/overall look
Better grades, better chances of success
Impress your boss
Impress your teacher
Overall general down-to-earth genuine HAPPINESS


Do not take these if you are both nursing or pregnant.

I'm not sure that is the case. I used to have low esteem, but I realized it was making my friends angry at me (always whining and yet doing nothing) so I manned up and increased it. I'm confident now.

I do/have everything you listed except for "Meeting new friends" and "Going out to clubs/parties (if you're too young to go to a bar or club)" and that's because my mom is.....weird. I'm almost 18, she won't let me drive or allow me to get a job. I would love to get out and do stuff, but I can't.

School doesn't really help either, I HATE it. I hate being trapped in a little place, not really learning anything of value, and I could go on and on and on about it.

[derkderpderp]

Okay,this sucks for you dude.

Erm,why dont you get out and do something you WILL enjoy with your friends,go and have a laugh!
You never know-maybe it will work!try it!And good luck!

[Raize]

Okay,this sucks for you dude.

Erm,why dont you get out and do something you WILL enjoy with your friends,go and have a laugh!
You never know-maybe it will work!try it!And good luck!

I really can't. My mom won't let me go anywhere. (unless it's with her, and going to Walmart or something) I managed to get her to let me have a friend over, but she won't let us do it except like once every 2 weeks, and she thinks we're fucking and won't leave us alone about it. We also cannot see each other on the weekends, or at his house, or anywhere else.

Not even joking, I'm stuck in my own house. I'm trying to convince her to let me drive by myself, but it's failing.

[Corey G.]

Raize I am sure I am the last person you want to hear from, but I know how you feel, I get depressed for the smallest reasons, and sometimes i try to blame my parents(mainly my dad) for it, even though i know they really didn't do anything to cause it. I know exactly what your going through I do, and I'm here to talk to you if you need it, I want to help, but you have to be willing to accept my help. And im scared, and saddened to think that you will just push me away.

[Raize]

Raize I am sure I am the last person you want to hear from, but I know how you feel, I get depressed for the smallest reasons, and sometimes i try to blame my parents(mainly my dad) for it, even though i know they really didn't do anything to cause it. I know exactly what your going through I do, and I'm here to talk to you if you need it, I want to help, but you have to be willing to accept my help. And im scared, and saddened to think that you will just push me away.

Unfortunately, I'm still quite pissed at you. If you do have something, non-religious, and non-moronic, to say, then go ahead.

[Corey G.]

-sighs- Then you want no answer from anyone on this planet. Your in my prayers, because i know how depression feels, and I don't want anyone else going through it.

[Raize]

-sighs- Then you want no answer from anyone on this planet. Your in my prayers, because i know how depression feels, and I don't want anyone else going through it.

What are you talking about?! In this thread alone, there has been many good answers. One happened to not fit me, although I could see where they were coming from. One I cannot do, it's beyond my control. The other one I'm considering and thinking about, but it's very difficult to do.

And I highly doubt it's real depression. I feel perfectly fine right now. It's only in small flashes every once and a while. I'm sure if I try hard enough I can beat it down.

Where do you get off and insulting other people's advice anyway? That's extremely rude. The people here are intelligent (on VT) I saw your post on the suggestions forum, you said people do not give good advice here. That's an outright lie. I look around, and see heaps load of good advice. True, there's bad advice here and there, but that is true with everything! Those are normally weeded and called out on, so no damage is done.

I think you're depressing yourself.

[Corey G.]

lol your right, many times when its depression it is me myself causing my depression, but our forms are very similar, im not always depressed, and it does come out in flashes. so maybe its the same for you?

[Raize]

Maybe. It's kinda an instinct though. I think about ...school or something then go "Oh shit. *depression*" then try to bring myself out of it. It may be left over from increasing my self-esteem before, or left over from inheriting it (both my parents have bad self images, it may have spreaded) But I have no idea.

Honestly, I think your problem-hang on, how old are you?

[Corey G.]

Maybe. It's kinda an instinct though. I think about ...school or something then go "Oh shit. *depression*" then try to bring myself out of it. It may be left over from increasing my self-esteem before, or left over from inheriting it (both my parents have bad self images, it may have spreaded) But I have no idea.

Honestly, I think your problem-hang on, how old are you?

same age as you 17 I will be 18 Aug 30th. wow o.o ok we are really similar here, you just mentioned the same thing.(also I dont want this as a debate, but rather that you look at the possibility, that you could have gained a bad-self image of yourself because thats how you learned from your parents poor self image) but age isn't anything, I've seen 13 year olds in college.

[Raize]

lol, my birthday is August 14th XD

Anyway, I was wondering your age of where you were in puberty. Because it's uber common for like 13 and 14 year old's to be depressed for no reason. Hormones can be a bitch.

But you're older and it shouldn't be a problem. I think you're just thinking too much. I mean, taking things too seriously and such. You could loosen up and take a look around. (Unless i"m totally wrong, I don't know you. I'm having to judge from your forum posts)

[Corey G.]

I'm actually one of the first people to crack a joke, most of my drepression is caused by stored up emotions(same with the anger problem I used to have horribly which is gradualy getting better. But yeah, I think me and you are very similar and should actually be able to learn from each others depression problems(mine have become VERY unlikely to happen and I have gained, with help unmentioned, a rather well control over it) But from what little you do know about me it was the probably the most accurate you could get(p.s. in the other posts you say i was getting irritated with getting the exact some oppositions over and over again, well the Christian specific forums one, the other one I was actually being civil about it, though might have been read wrong)

[Raize]

Do you do art or something? That can help with emotions. Or a blog or something...

Well, you were pissing me (and a few other people it looks like) with religious non-sense. Your reasoning for...most of the stuff you were saying made no sense at all. I would go into details, but really. I don't want a headache D:

[Corey G.]

Well I am very tired right now, and I was in a hurry to post it, but if you do need something explained I'm more than happy too =o, also I study, write, play games, and I do draw but I am not good. What I study is Homosexuality, Evolution, Creationism, Science, Religious views, Morality, Psycology, NOT spelling =PxD, The Bible(of course), Politics, etc. =o but i do have a habit to ramble incoherently and if you want to get the main point behind something I say ask, like a word that confused you, or a phrase that just didnt quite make sense I'm more than willing to explain, if it means a better chance to get to truth. (ps hobbies are nice, but so is understanding importance) I love this phrase I was read in a book called '2 die 4', 'If you have nothing worth dying for, then you really have nothing worth living for.' Do you have something worth dying for? If not than that is something very important and something I would erge you to search for.