Jman35
July 6th, 2009, 11:51 PM
My ex-girlfriend was one of the best and worst things that ever happened to me. She was always nice and I loved her with all my heart, I was pretty sure she felt the same way, now 4 months after the break up I question it.
That kid that was always flirting and screwing around with her, I always hated him, but I knew he liked her. I wanted to believe she didn't have feelings for him, but I always kind of thought in the back of my head she did.
I had been going back and forth with that kid (now her current boy friend) through her myspace. I got to talk to her to. She was under the impression that I hated her, and so was I, but the truth is, as much as I wanted to believe she was nothing, that I never wanted to see her again, I still have feelings for her, and she still has some for me, but neither of us are in that deep as were before, but it's there.
After some of the hurtful things I said, which I'm beginning to regret, she retaliated and had a few words of her own. The messages and chatting cooled down, and I told her that the truth is, I really do not hate her, but just don't want to talk to her and block her out. I also told her I do hate that kid and still want to fight him. She's saying things like "what's your adress I need to send these back" and that just really, really hurts so bad. I had so much feeling for this girl, and when she started saying things like that, I felt like I was going crazy.
My head is still spinning, I feel said, she has brought me to tears, I don't know what to do, I don't want to have her in my life, but feelings don't just, how do I say this...go away on command
I don't know how to handle this.
That kid that was always flirting and screwing around with her, I always hated him, but I knew he liked her. I wanted to believe she didn't have feelings for him, but I always kind of thought in the back of my head she did.
I had been going back and forth with that kid (now her current boy friend) through her myspace. I got to talk to her to. She was under the impression that I hated her, and so was I, but the truth is, as much as I wanted to believe she was nothing, that I never wanted to see her again, I still have feelings for her, and she still has some for me, but neither of us are in that deep as were before, but it's there.
After some of the hurtful things I said, which I'm beginning to regret, she retaliated and had a few words of her own. The messages and chatting cooled down, and I told her that the truth is, I really do not hate her, but just don't want to talk to her and block her out. I also told her I do hate that kid and still want to fight him. She's saying things like "what's your adress I need to send these back" and that just really, really hurts so bad. I had so much feeling for this girl, and when she started saying things like that, I felt like I was going crazy.
My head is still spinning, I feel said, she has brought me to tears, I don't know what to do, I don't want to have her in my life, but feelings don't just, how do I say this...go away on command
I don't know how to handle this.