suicide watch!!!!

[sienna.]

GUESS WHERE I AM!!!

i am in this nice little room in the hospital...

ON SUICIDE WATCH!!!!!!!!!:mad::what:

BUT I DIDN'T TRY TO KILL MYSELF!!!

and the frickin people at the inpatient treatment centre don't believe me!!!
i have been in this room for 2 days now!!!!

[Sapphire]

You don't have to try to kill yourself to be put on suicide watch. They're obviously concerned for some reason or another that you will try though, it is for your own good.

[sienna.]

they think i tried to kill myself though!!
but i didn't!!
i swear to god i didn't.

things just happened....

[chelsay13]

what happened? If you don't mind my asking.
Are you okay?

[sienna.]

okayy..
well it was night time.
and i was in my room.
and i hadn't throw up at all, for a really long time, since i have been here.

that day they had made me eat over 2100 calories!!
it was disgusting!

so that night i was in the bathroom, and i was looking at myself in the mirror, DISGUSTED!!!
and i lost it, i started crying and i threw something at the mirror. and the glass smashed every where!!
i went to clean it up, but i slipped on the glass, and a big chunk of glass went into my arm.
like near my wrist..
so i pulled it out.

and i made myself throw up... blood every where. it was disgusting.
and that't when i though.
what the eff am i doing.
pull yourself together.
so i was gonna go to bed.
but i find it hard to sleep.

so i stood up and i got some sleeping tablets that i had hidden.
i took a few. but then i passed out.
dropping the pills every where.
and passing out all over the glass.

and when i woke up i was in here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i told them what i just wrote. and they don't believe me.
i must admit. bit of a weird thing that happened.
BUT THAT IS THE HONEST TRUTH!!!

[Antares]

You didn't try to kill yourself but you could have with those pills.

You are in there because they are concerned about your life. You will probably be in there a couple more days. Just try to hold out

[Sapphire]

You can see why they would have thought you'd tried though. To find someone passed out with blood, vomit, sleeping tablets and broken mirror all around them often points towards an attempt.

Just keep your head down and show them that you aren't going to do something like that again.

[ShatteredWings]

Hun relax.
That situation does look a lot like a suicide. I'm sorry, but if anyone here had walked in on that, we would probably've assumed you tried to kill yourself.

2100 kcal is a lot... especailly for you. But it's not disgusting -- the eating disorder really messes with your mind

You're only in there for two days. Just try to relax. ok hun?

[Beautiful Obsession]

Dont worry hunn you'll be out of there before you know it,, put yourself in there position though, if you walked in someones home to find glass smashed everywhere with blood all down your arm, sick all over the bathroom and pills dropped everywhere what would you think? and would you believe the victim (you)?? i know your tellin the truth but they'v added 2 and 2 together and made 5. dont worry there just concerned for you,
as i said you'l be out of there before you know it..

were here for you babe xx

[Rutherford The Brave]

okayy..
well it was night time.
and i was in my room.
and i hadn't throw up at all, for a really long time, since i have been here.

that day they had made me eat over 2100 calories!!
it was disgusting!

so that night i was in the bathroom, and i was looking at myself in the mirror, DISGUSTED!!!
and i lost it, i started crying and i threw something at the mirror. and the glass smashed every where!!
i went to clean it up, but i slipped on the glass, and a big chunk of glass went into my arm.
like near my wrist..
so i pulled it out.

and i made myself throw up... blood every where. it was disgusting.
and that't when i though.
what the eff am i doing.
pull yourself together.
so i was gonna go to bed.
but i find it hard to sleep.

so i stood up and i got some sleeping tablets that i had hidden.
i took a few. but then i passed out.
dropping the pills every where.
and passing out all over the glass.

and when i woke up i was in here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i told them what i just wrote. and they don't believe me.
i must admit. bit of a weird thing that happened.
BUT THAT IS THE HONEST TRUTH!!!

2100 calories, isnt that bad, I mean its not nearly enough for me. Your not disgusting, by the looks of it your a very beautiful girl. So don't worry youll get out of there and you can continue living.

[sienna.]

but this isn't fair!!!!

I'M NOT A DANGER TO MYSELF!!!!!!

i am not going to kill myself.

i just want to get out of here...
and they wont let me!!!

what happened was an accident.
it wont happen again.
i was just upset!!!

[AllThatIsLeft]

Hun what might be worried about is what if next time you are upset. You are not so lucky, and do die, EVEN if it is accidental.

[LiGHT]

Sienna your so prrretty don't kill yourself!
There's obviously a reason why you are on suicide watch, They must have thought you were going too. Just act good and they will let you go :P. do you remember what happened that made them think you were going to kill yourself?

[sienna.]

so what!
because you think i'm pretty that is why i shouldn't kill myself??
what if you thought i was ugly??

i just want to go home!!
ii hate this place.
and i don't need to put on suicide watch.

i can look after myself!!

[Atonement]

i can look after myself!!

If you could look after yourself, this would have never happened.

[LiGHT]

so what!
because you think i'm pretty that is why i shouldn't kill myself??
what if you thought i was ugly??

i just want to go home!!
ii hate this place.
and i don't need to put on suicide watch.

i can look after myself!!
No thats not what I meant :(.
Even if you were ugly I still wouldn't want you to kill yourself.
I think your pretty and even if you have problems you can talk about them and you said you were not going to kill yourself but suicide isn't and answer and I hope you get home soon :|

[sienna.]

i can look after myself.
i have so far.
and look i'm not dead!!!!!!

i don't want to die!
i am not going to kill myself.
but no one will listen to me!!!!!!

i am no risk to myself at all!!!!!!

[LiGHT]

Thats not what they thought. But wait what happened for you to get in there?

[sienna.]

well maybe if you read the forum you will find out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Truth]

so what!
because you think i'm pretty that is why i shouldn't kill myself??
what if you thought i was ugly?? No girl is ugly.

i can look after myself.
i have so far.
and look i'm not dead!!!!!!

i don't want to die!
i am not going to kill myself.
but no one will listen to me!!!!!!

i am no risk to myself at all!!!!!! If you can look after yourself, and you're not a risk, why did you make yourself puke, bleed, and take sleeping pills all at once. Im amazed you didn't die, if i bleed too much i pretty much i can barely move. You can look after yourself, but not just yet.

[ShatteredWings]

you are a risk to yourself hun. The eating disorder is what makes it that you can't be on your own without help. not the "suicide" -- which i totally belivie you didnt try to do.

[iamafterhours]

Accidents happen and everyone gets upset at some point :(

It's not fair but people always assume the worst

Hope you get out of there soon

[tyler27846]

im glad u are still alive you are to pretty to die

[nachtspiegel]

I hate to sound like a dick, but how are you on a computer in suicide watch in a treatment center?

[Breathless]

i was wondering that! at the hospital where my friend is, they have one computer, and its only for homework.

[Sapphire]

I hate to sound like a dick, but how are you on a computer in suicide watch in a treatment center?

i was wondering that! at the hospital where my friend is, they have one computer, and its only for homework.
I was wondering as well...but due to past conflicts with her I bit my tongue...

[antimonic]

Just afew questions:

You passed out as soon as you swallowed the pills? and why did you take the pills in the bathroom with glass, blood and vomit all around you? if you wanted to sleep usually you sleep in a bed, (it tends to be the better option than a glass covered floor :P) so why not take the pills in bed?

Also, you had a wound that was causing blood to splatter everywhere, did you not think it should be dealt with before bed? lol

Picture it from whoever-found-you's point of view. They walk into a bathroom to see a girl - who was admitted with an eating disorder - unconscious, surrounded by broken glass, blood, vomit, a wound near her wrist and sleeping pills scattered around.

What would you believe happened? I think you'd be hard pushed to find a hospital or clinic that DOESNT put you on suicide watch.

And you cant really say you arent a danger to yourself if in one night you where able to pass out (with the help of sleeping pills) onto a bathroom floor covered in glass and vomit lol sorry, but its like a shark saying he is no threat to a wounded seal!



so what!

because you think i'm pretty that is why i shouldn't kill myself??

what if you thought i was ugly??

and i don't need to put on suicide watch.

BUT I DIDN'T TRY TO KILL MYSELF!!!

I'M NOT A DANGER TO MYSELF!!!!!!

i can look after myself!!
If i bite down any harder my tongue will fall off! :D

[Rutherford The Brave]

I think this girl might have something wrong with her, and to be honest, it doesnt sound like anything shes stated, I should shut up before I get in trouble.

[sienna.]

well i wasn't thinking properly at the time.

i wasn't thinking.. ohh i should clean up the glas before i take my sleeping tablets.
and i didn't pass out from the tables.
i passed out from all the blood i threw up.

and i am not in a normal hospital.
i am in the room.
there isn't machines or anything.

it's like the hospital part of the centre.
and i'm on my phone...

[antimonic]

If you say so!! :D

[Triceratops]

If you could look after yourself, this would have never happened.

I hate to sound like a dick, but how are you on a computer in suicide watch in a treatment center?

My thoughts exactly.

[Beautiful Obsession]

and also.. to be fare Truth, she is lookin after herself, its not easy to over come an eating disorder, its one of the hardest things in life to do,
babe you are doing so well and its ok to relapse now and then, its expected.. bt you will be out soon, and i believe that you generally wernt trying to kill yourself and it was just a relapse but the point is you could of killed yourself, even if you didnt mean it, i know you can overcome this you'v been through so much,

i know you dont think your a harm to yourself but if the hospital (well i know its not a hospital but i dunno wot its called sorry) think your at any risk its there job..

and Native Rose?? Are you calling Sienna a liar? She doesnt come on here to be called a liar and tbh i belive her, you wernt there so you cant judge!


you'll get through this babe x

[Rutherford The Brave]

and also.. to be fare Truth, she is lookin after herself, its not easy to over come an eating disorder, its one of the hardest things in life to do,
babe you are doing so well and its ok to relapse now and then, its expected.. bt you will be out soon, and i believe that you generally wernt trying to kill yourself and it was just a relapse but the point is you could of killed yourself, even if you didnt mean it, i know you can overcome this you'v been through so much,

i know you dont think your a harm to yourself but if the hospital (well i know its not a hospital but i dunno wot its called sorry) think your at any risk its there job..

and Native Rose?? Are you calling Sienna a liar? She doesnt come on here to be called a liar and tbh i belive her, you wernt there so you cant judge!


you'll get through this babe x

Well thats your judgement. But to me her whole story is a load of bull. I'm sorry you know, I avoided her first topics and never posted. But now its oh he beat me, he walked out on me, I'm going back to him, I'm fleeing to america. This girl wants change so badly yet she sits there and accepts everything that happens. What I can't believe is that someone is that submissive to the point where she puts herself at risk, lets her boyfriend beat her. If you want to believe her be my guest, but shes been on her crying and telling us how "Coop" hits her and how she's on suicide watch. She now wants change so flying to America will be fine. No she's leaving the elephant in the room, and thats what I can't believe. Actually I can judge, and I just did.

[Sapphire]

Well thats your judgement. But to me her whole story is a load of bull. I'm sorry you know, I avoided her first topics and never posted. But now its oh he beat me, he walked out on me, I'm going back to him, I'm fleeing to america. This girl wants change so badly yet she sits there and accepts everything that happens. What I can't believe is that someone is that submissive to the point where she puts herself at risk, lets her boyfriend beat her. If you want to believe her be my guest, but shes been on her crying and telling us how "Coop" hits her and how she's on suicide watch. She now wants change so flying to America will be fine. No she's leaving the elephant in the room, and thats what I can't believe. Actually I can judge, and I just did.
I agree.

Her story doesn't add up in places and in others it just sounds too incredible.

[Beautiful Obsession]

yeaaa alright fare enoughh.. but why would she make this upp? and tbh people come on here for help, so why would Sienaa come on here and make up stuff to get help she doesnt even need? and some people just have bad luckk, and if you love someone no matter what they do you just cant leave them because you love them so much.

and i think sienna has come on here for help not be called a liar..

but i suppose you all do have your own opinion soo i cant really say anything.. and we should prob get back to the topic..

xx

[Rutherford The Brave]

I hope that I'm wrong and everything works out. But I can't see anyone who would subject themselves to this. This is why I'm upset, now I've said to much I must be going.

[sienna.]

i guess i can see why people think that i am lying.
so many bad things happen.
and it's gotten to a pont where people are like, how can one girl have all these dramatic things go on.

but i am not lying.
all the things that have happened to me are my own fault.
i have brought them on myself.
it's because i make horrible decisions.
i am not thinking straight, and i chose to do the wrong thing.

you people are trying to help me, and i wouldn't dare to take advantage of that.

if you think i am lying, that is your choice.
but i'm not!!
i swear that i am not lying.

[AllThatIsLeft]

I'm tired of trying to make sense of this story.
i honestly find it hard to believe.
But i always put my insight on things, just in case it is true.
I come here to help.
That help be needed or not, well i did my part.

[jordybb]

Just be calm and composed and everything will be all right....
you will be discharged soon and its only for your own good that you have been put their ...

[Atonement]

As you have discharged yourself, I am locking this for it is no longer relevant.