ErykaInspire.
July 5th, 2009, 06:19 PM
My father used to be a raging alcoholic, and my mother is emotionally abusive.
Living here isn't easy, and I have to admit, it's a majority of the reason why i was in two years of chronic depression.
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My dad used to use a sledgehammer to smash things. When I was young, around the age of 7, he smashed the computer while I was on it.
My mom tells me to do something, then once I do it, she puts me down and says I'm not good enough.
Being called "worthless", "disappointing", "embarrassing", "retarded", or "tramp" isn't rare in my house
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But cutting, burning, and overdosing only made my body shut down even more.
I finally started talking to someone privately, and I felt like I was a million times better.
I started smiling again.
Life became so easy that it just flowed by.
Then, I met this guy. We were my schools "THE Couple". Everyone thought we were meant to be together.
Well... only two months into our "perfect" relationship, I wouldn't let him go as far as he desired. He grew angry and shoved me into the dirt
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We walked to and from school through the woods everyday together
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He tried to rape me.. I relapsed into Chronic Depression.
I started being suicidal, I overdosed so much that during a cheer-off (i was in cheerleading, forcibly from my mom) I passed out on the floor, infront of alot of people.
9 months later, I've changed into someone I really like, thanks to my guidance counselor, good friends, and self-devotion.
Writing then became a big part of my life. I learned how to put my thoughts onto paper.
Poetry soon became an addiction. I started writing about other peoples experiences, and soon learned how to handle situations when they came my way.
It's not about forgetting the things that happen to you, it's about understanding that they happened, and knowing that you survived.
Life is precious, don't waste it hurting yourself or wishing you were dead.
I know I don't personally know your problems, but i do know that it's possible to overcome anything that's thrown your way if you're devoted.
I'm definitely open to discusion, and if you need to vent, just send me a PM.
I'd be more than happy to help you as much as I can.
Always,
Eryka
Living here isn't easy, and I have to admit, it's a majority of the reason why i was in two years of chronic depression.
---
My dad used to use a sledgehammer to smash things. When I was young, around the age of 7, he smashed the computer while I was on it.
My mom tells me to do something, then once I do it, she puts me down and says I'm not good enough.
Being called "worthless", "disappointing", "embarrassing", "retarded", or "tramp" isn't rare in my house
---
But cutting, burning, and overdosing only made my body shut down even more.
I finally started talking to someone privately, and I felt like I was a million times better.
I started smiling again.
Life became so easy that it just flowed by.
Then, I met this guy. We were my schools "THE Couple". Everyone thought we were meant to be together.
Well... only two months into our "perfect" relationship, I wouldn't let him go as far as he desired. He grew angry and shoved me into the dirt
---
We walked to and from school through the woods everyday together
---
He tried to rape me.. I relapsed into Chronic Depression.
I started being suicidal, I overdosed so much that during a cheer-off (i was in cheerleading, forcibly from my mom) I passed out on the floor, infront of alot of people.
9 months later, I've changed into someone I really like, thanks to my guidance counselor, good friends, and self-devotion.
Writing then became a big part of my life. I learned how to put my thoughts onto paper.
Poetry soon became an addiction. I started writing about other peoples experiences, and soon learned how to handle situations when they came my way.
It's not about forgetting the things that happen to you, it's about understanding that they happened, and knowing that you survived.
Life is precious, don't waste it hurting yourself or wishing you were dead.
I know I don't personally know your problems, but i do know that it's possible to overcome anything that's thrown your way if you're devoted.
I'm definitely open to discusion, and if you need to vent, just send me a PM.
I'd be more than happy to help you as much as I can.
Always,
Eryka