does this help??

[piggy-wiggy]

okai, so i was away for a week in our holiday home, and i brought my blade...
i only used it 4 maybe 5 tyms, but now that im home, i noticed i left it there...
since i started SH, ive used that one blade...
so my question is, does ne1 think that maybe because i dont have it might be easier to stop? ?
or will i just go mad lukin for something new? because ive already tried............:(

[Wakoabs]

I think it all depends on that person. if I lose mine I go frantic looking every were for it . But for some it maybe easier as they have nothing to use.

[Project Delta]

If you stay positive and believe you DONT need it, then it should be easier

[OnlyByTheNight.]

Well if it was me I would have to get a new one because if I knew I didn't have to opinion to cut I would just stress out and want to cut even more!

[BlackenedSilver]

It will be easier to stop if it is really hard to get a new blade. As then you won't have the option to cut :)
But yea what Aaron said sounds about right :D

[Project Delta]

It is true that without the option to cut, it might get worse, see if it does for you and if it doesnt dont get a new blade. I keep mine for security but makes it more likely to cut as i donnt cuts with knives. Too hard for me

[ShinigamiMaiden]

NEVER post ideas and suggestions on what to use to self-harm. Consider this your last warning.

[piggy-wiggy]

aaron i guess ur ryt...
but i get what everyone else is saying.. i think that by having the option to cut, i use it as a security for anything that might happen, today i was going mental lukin for something....
and i kept flipping out at everyone wu just even tlked to me..
the whole stress of not having it isnt exactly helping, i kept scratching at my hand today. but i had to do it continuously instead of a cut...
it was rly bad today i never knew i cud have gone so mental because of this. .....

[Project Delta]

Well i would say try this, have a blade in a box, lock it with a padlock and then Throw away the key :) Therefore if you want it, you have to break into the box? :)

[piggy-wiggy]

thats actually an awsume idea....
but im gona have to wait til i get bak to the holiday place.. which cud be ages...
but im def gona try it aaron.. :)

[Project Delta]

Good :) good :)

[piggy-wiggy]

thank you :)

[Project Delta]

Anytime, you got msn? You can PM me anytime too for advice :)

[piggy-wiggy]

yeah.. i pmed you the addy.. :)..................x

[Project Delta]

I added you :)

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[piggy-wiggy]

i also added yhoo.. :)..............x

[dstnyisurs]

It depends. I didn't have a blade this week when I was away and I was about to go nuts. I couldn't stop shaking at the least bit stressfull thing and I was digging my nails into my arms and drawing blood.
I find also I tend to turn to worse things then my own little knife when I don't have it.
It may work for you, or it may not. It's individual.

[piggy-wiggy]

inno thanks for the advice...
i am actually going rly crazy.. but i think this is a gud thing, i might force myself to stop....................x

[MadManWithaBox]

well dont try and just have just have one big stop, cos for me at least, i tried that, and a week later id done it even worse. gradually is the key. like say if you do 10 cuts in a day, try and get it down to 9 or 8, and continue reducing. not that im encouraging you to cut, but just stopping all at once can be the worst thing to do

[Project Delta]

That is true, i now have cut once in 37 days. Its getting hard sure/.... i miss it a lot... i'll probs fall back into the trap later on.

[dstnyisurs]

37 days? That's awesome! Sick! *high five
Matthew is right. Don't stop cold turkey.

Ew.. cold turkey. Where did that phrase come from anywhoo... ?
Sorry rambling.
Good luck stopping! Im here if you need me!

[Project Delta]

welll its 12 days at the momeny. :) You missed my 1000th post

[piggy-wiggy]

tnks for the advice, i guess stopping lyk that isnt the best idea..
unless lyk you aaron, it seems to work for you..
congrats on the time btw.. =)...............x

[Project Delta]

But thats coz i'm kewl! :P Jks, piggy get on MSN i need yous

[piggy-wiggy]

haha, yeah aaron, thats totally the reason.. :)
okie dokie, im goin on aaron.. :)
xx

[1_21Guns]

i've been trying to stop from the moment I started, yet i never got rid of my blade, I keep it there so I know I can resist the urge. Sure, I've relapsed, and if i cant find it, i go looking for it like crazy, but while I know its there, and ive havent self harmed, I know I dont need it.

[piggy-wiggy]

yeah [poster above, sorry dont no ur name], ive been goign mental, i need it, but this weekend i'll geet it back, hopefully, its lyk a security tha i need.....................x

[TaBear.]

Losing my object makes it worse. I go crazy looking for something. It's actually resorted in me punching through my bathroom mirror and using the pieces.