crush crisis. Help please?!

[Society]

hi.

i've had a crush on this guy since december 2008, and we're not close or anything, we just talk on facebook and msn sometimes we've never spoke irl outside of school though, all though he did used to be in my geography class.

i'm not just attracted to him for his looks, but he's really funny, and he's a different guy if you know what i mean. i've had this intense crush on him since then, and it hasn't gone away, although i forgot about him for a while, but then it came back again.

we're both going 6th Form in september, and one of the AS levels we're picking is the same quite a coincidence actually, and i'm hopefully in his class again.

before i got a crush on him, i used to just not care about anything. i haven't had a boyfriend since i was 12, and anyway i'm fat and ugly but this summer ive started losing weight and getting out more and taking more pride in my appearance.

thing is, i dont know his other friends and i dont think they like me, and i have been bullied severely for the past 2 years for reasons i dont know why, and im badly emotionally and physically scarred as i cut myself really badly last year. i'm really hopeful to become deeper friends and go out with him eventually, but i think my bullied reputation is a turn off, all though i dont really know if he notices it or not. he doesnt know i like him, but a few of my friends do.

Thanks for any help, people :confused: :confused: :confused:

[LiGHT]

First off i'm really sorry about you being bullied. I was bullied really bad when i was little too.

If he doesn't know and I i bet he doesn't care if you were bullied or not and you said yourself you think you look different and who knows maybe he has noticed. The best advice i can give you is to get a group of friends together and invite him and maybe you 2 will hit it off. Gl and i hope your in the same class again :)

[Raize]

Be confident! That's the main key in everything! Increasing your self-esteem, and love yourself. Then you can put behind your past and approach the guy.

[kyle95]

ur on the right track by changing a few things about urself. the bullying thing shouldn't make a diff, in fact most blokes would step in 4 u 2 help. ur not fat nor ugly. ur working on improving certain things in ur life. look outward and enjoy life instead on going inward and hurting urself. enjoy the game, its called life. u have a crush on a chap, enjoy the moment, dont worry about the outcome - its in the experience that u may chance to meet him and form a friendship. first and foremost, love urself, have confidence, everything else will fall into place for u