triggers.

[nachtspiegel]

What triggers you to remember the bad elements of the abuse you went through?
For me, basements, the smell of bleach, and hearing glasses shatter and belts snap are the worst.

Edit: forgot to add that I hate when people touch anywhere below my shoulders while I'm sleeping.

[The Batman]

Yelling, kids crying, any kind of confrontation that includes anger.

[Sapphire]

The most common for me are the song Sexual Healing by Marvin Gaye and the film Men In Black 2.

[YourFriend]

yah defenatly kids crying for me...

[Agent]

Someone having face tics(like tourettes syndrome) which makes a strange sound, parent yelling to a child and a child crying.

[nachtspiegel]

Another to add: the smell of chlorine.

[AllThatIsLeft]

Christian ppl =\ ... as both my abusers were Christian.

[The Joker]

I'm sorry about that Paula.

Edit: Second part of sentence isn't needed

[Neverender]

Another to add: the smell of chlorine.

Might I ask why if you wish to answer?



For me, my parents screaming at me, or any kind of seething hatrid towards me, will set me off. Brings back awful memories.

[ErykaInspire.]

Driving past Church Street...
People touching the back of my neck, I tense up and almost cry.
Getting shoved, even if gently/accidentally.
Hearing his name..
Seeing him in class.
Ect..

[nachtspiegel]

edit.

[Reality]

I wasn't abused per se, but I was bullied quite badly for a while. But, yeah, I don't know if this "triggers" me or not, but people laughing behind my back (as in literally) and gangs of chavs make me really nervous, now.

[EverlostPoet]

Mines not much abuse but more self harm,

steak Knifes,
Blood,
Crying,
the smell of Dish detergent,
and more i have to think a little

[ErykaInspire.]

The sight of anything sharp.

Once I get a little bit upset... everything crashes and I become a zombie.
*shrugs* Habbit I suppose..

[Rogue27]

My cousin or thinking about my old basement.

[Rutherford The Brave]

motels, and guns

[Fallen_embers]

Those who hurt me
I don't like people touching my wrists (like using them to pull me somewhere)
Hate it when people touch me when I'm not expecting it
When my bf asks to see me getting undressed on webcam when i'm not with him

the smell of bleach.
sick
sudden loud noises

[1_21Guns]

loud shouting, kids crying, walking past my old house, seeing my dads car, seeing parents yell at kids, myself crying, the smell of ciggerettes, the smell of lager. Alot of random things.

[Sunshine Girl]

a certain brand of dial bar soap.

[peaceloverugby]

Slamming doors, kids crying, seeing younger kids that have bruises, sometimes even just a little kid with a sad look on his face, old family photos, and especially adults yelling/shouting/screaming at children. I once berated a woman in public for raising her voice with her child (her son couldn't have been more than six years old); it was pretty embrassing, but she was driving me crazy, we were in a checkout line so i could leave or anything.

[teenanx94]

crying, my parents yelling at me, guns.

[TigerLily]

Children crying, the sound of my mother's laughter, the city we used to live, my neighbouring town, ambulance sirens, the model of her old car, driving in the night, really quiet children, my nana, my nana's house, old childhood photographs, being home alone at night, the church we used to attend, children being shouted at, shouting in general, certain types of prescription medication.. there are more, pretty much anything that can remind me of my mother, but that's enough for now.

[Sapphire]

Going past or through Sheffield is difficult for me.

Thank God I don't live there! Lol

[Viral Death]

Yelling and the sound of destruction of property such as dressers and fridges

[Discomposure]

People shouting and getting too close to me.

[Project Delta]

people touching my legs makes me really uneasy, i cant remember any of my childhood... link?

[Harley Quinn]

shouting and loud noises although crying makes me uneasy too

[DarkWingedAngel]

people touching my neck, people pulling at me by my wrist, church bells ringing, sound of guns, people touching my legs when im in water, and people just hugging me in water.
Don't know why they trigger anything but they do.

[ShatteredWings]

people walking close behind me..

oddly, woden spoons.
any kids shriking/screaming/crying. even if its happy

[Harley Quinn]

Being near broken glass
the dark alleys
deep breathing
smokers breath

[nachtspiegel]

I've thought of another... church buses.

[Appleton]

what reminds me of my abuse is people asking for shirtless pics n getting all mad and having attitudes when they wont understand why i cant take shirtless pics. Been three years now and I still cant swim in a pool without a shirt if other people are there. All I here is you have face pics and you're gay so it must not have been too bad for you.

[blameitonvogue]

his name.
Moulin Rouge.
meat/dairy products.
smoker's breath.
people behind me.
touching in any form.
sullen people.
people threatening to call the cops on me.
police/ police cars. (especially the ones with wire, not glass)
the scared look in friend's eyes if I come to school with sunglasses on.

and a certain type of men's cologne that I haven't found the name to yet. :/

[SlappyTwinkle]

shouting and screaming. the smell of alcohol. sneaky people. tv on too late at night. empty glasses.

[Beautiful Obsession]

certain songss,, i lsten to some when i think of the abuse, now everytime i listen i cry, nans housee, art book (i drew a picture of what happened inside it). and the person:/

[Bougainvillea]

Marijuana :(

[Project Delta]

people using the word Retard towards me

[OnlyByTheNight.]

People standing at my back.
Big crowds.
People breathing in my ear.
People putting their hand on my shoulder.

[diamond jetstream]

if someone is annoying me heaps and they say something about my brothers then i just snap and hit them until someone stops me

[Project Delta]

Being on buses

[ToastBandito]

Shouting people
Children laughing or crying
My sisters laughter
People touching my legs, waist, neck or wrists
Family photos
The smell of alcohol
The song "these noises"
Irish Spring bar soap
Knives
Ambulences
Being in a closet
Pools
and people standing behind me.
:/

[deadpie]

Me personally, Nine Inch Nails/Trent Reznor songs, and uTorrent. I know, this sounds weird.

I know what you mean. Actually, NIN is a good trigger for me. Why? Because while I was growing up in those horrible situations, the music actually was the only thing I could relate to and make me feel better. That's kind of why I idolize Trent Reznor. I feel like his music has really gotten me threw my childhood.

When you say uTorrent, don't be surprised. Many people have strange triggers. Certain smells will make my mind go blank sometimes.

My trigger list is very long. I don't think it ever ends. But my main ones are when someone mentions "the word", The Cure (Every time I hear one of there songs I just want to slit my fucking neck), Pictures of me as a kid, bruisings on people.

Anyone do strange things while they're in that post-trigger mode? Like where after a trigger happens they start doing things? I draw lots of half moons and eyes after my triggers.

[georgiamay]

yeah i tend to either self harm, but i havent done that in a while, and i try not to. if i have one while at school, i'll start shading the corners of the paper in front of me.

i'm not sure if all of it is really abuse, more neglect, and just watching my mum destroy herself, but kind of a bit of abuse here and there.

my triggers are:
seeing vodka behind a counter at a shop.
watching people drinking vodka.
when anyone mentions the word 'suicide'.
kids that look sad.
when people take the piss out of alcoholics.
flats that are at least a floor up.
bathrooms that look similar to my mums old one.
ambulance sirens.
almost everytime my step dad gives me an angry look.
people telling me everything will be ok.
sitting in the car for more than 20 seconds outside a cinema (dont ask).


thats all i can think of right now.

edit: sometimes when i get bored my mind wonders, and i randomly have a flashback.

[ForgetMeNot]

When anyone raises there arms/hands in a fast manner, hands coming near my face, I dont really like people being behind me, sex, sometimes nothing triggers it, it just pops out.

[thatzoeygirl]

I wasn't abused per say, just neglected. Watched my mom spiral down, and then I began to spiral down, too...anyway;

I can't stand being hugged or touched in general. I seize up and usually start literally clawing to get my way out, even if that person was just being friendly. I really don't know why either, I just do. Even when my Dad or my closest friends try to hug me.

[misery_business]

Yelling and loud noises, people screaming or shouting in anger. My parents getting mad, seeing old family photos, someone with a belt in hand and people touching me when i don't expect it...
Police or ambulance sirens, people who work in hospitals, people talking about suicide/self harm or abuse.

[ShatteredWings]

Anyone do strange things while they're in that post-trigger mode? Like where after a trigger happens they start doing things? I draw lots of half moons and eyes after my triggers.
usually i end up cutting...
if that's being avoided, drawing shit. Usually it's some of the more child-like drawings from me, and i don't show people that stuff.

[Quick_Sylver]

Beer.
Hands coming toward my face.
Hands near my neck/shoulder/upper torso.
Yelling.
My sister crying and begging.
Doors..(if they're open)
Some water areas.

There's more; but I dont have the time to list them.

[ShatteredWings]

Beer.
Nice to know I'm not the only one.

i've got issues with all alcohol, but beer... i can't stand it i can't be in the same room if anyone is drinking it.
Too many things associated with my drunk ass of a 'father'.

[Quick_Sylver]

Nice to know I'm not the only one.

i've got issues with all alcohol, but beer... i can't stand it i can't be in the same room if anyone is drinking it.
Too many things associated with my drunk ass of a 'father'.

:hug3: I understand that, in a way.

As for some more triggers;
SAW movies,
small animals,
garter snakes,
dark shrubs in the middle of nowhere.

[enjoying_my_insanity]

i randomly remember being bullied but some things that trigger those memories are (if im not distracted) passing my old school and looking at my 8th grade class....they were the ones who bullied me a lot

[Dog Desab]

yelling, being touched, doors slamming, stomping, big arguments over little things...

[middkid]

Beautiful Girls- Sean Kingston, talking about suicide, my room at my dad's house.