I feel realy bad.

[chelsay13]

Ok, so june 16th I throw away 4 monthes of not cutting. I wasn't really tha tupset, like i was before. But what's really hurting me is everyone thinks i'm better and everything. Then i sent an email to a teacher thanking them for elping me through the year and they said "No problem Chelsea, we wanted to help you. All you need to do is be honest with yourself and get help when needed. Always be honest with everyone and stay healthy. If you're honest everything will be okay. " What am I supposed to do about that? I'm not being honest. I feel horrible, only because of that. I can't admit it, since they'll have to call my parents [again] and inform the school [again]. That teacher is the only one i feel bad for hurting.

[Mzor203]

I know it can be a hassle to get help, embarrassing to have everyone know about your problems, but covering it up and hiding it isn't going to help. Being honest in a situation like this is a good idea. You're going to need outside help, and why not take the oppurtunity to get some help when you have someone who is ready to be there for you?

You can't wait until it's too late. You just need a bit of courage, and need to be prepared to go through a bit of a process. Overthinking these things tends to make them seem very scary to us, so just doing it is the real answer sometimes.

I know it'll be hard for you to change your views and your mind just on my word, but think about it. You're already showing that you have the power in you to defeat your urges for long perods of time, you just need to make that last final push-through, and hopefully you can break free of your problems.

I hope you find some way to get this all sorted out. Just think a bit about building up a bit of a support base for yourself.

[TODAYisTHEday]

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[Project Delta]

You could tell the School and ask for complete confidenciatlity, and therefore they will be obliged to keep it within the school

[chelsay13]

Schools can't give 100% confidentiality. It's against the law.

[byee]

Chelsea, let me put a different spin on this for you, tell me what you think.

I don't think the teacher's at school mean 'honesty' quite the way you're interpreting it. I think they might mean "openness", maybe they were responding to your coming to them and telling them, and this is their nugget about that, that they're encouraging you to always feel Ok doing that, to come to someone when you're hurting.

I also don't think you've betrayed them here, I don't think your slipping an dcutting is an example of 'dishonesty'. It was a mistake, it resulted from a slipped impulse, one that got away from you. It happens.

Regroup here, pull yourself together, and get back on the train. Just do what you've been apparently successfully been doing those other 4 months when you were not cutting.

[chelsay13]

You know what Sam, You're totally right. Thanks, it actually kind of turnedthings around.