i really don't know anymore...

[Gumleaf]

these depressive thoughts and feelings i have are getting more frequent again. but whats worse is that half the time i have no idea what the problem is. i feel so stupid. people try to help and ask me what is wrong? and i can't even answer sometimes because i don't even know myself. i just want to cry sometimes and i don't know why? i feel like such a burden on everyone, and that just makes me even more upset. i wish this would all go away, but everything i've tried so far just fails. i'm just a born failure.

[TigerLily]

Stephen, I know I hardly know you, but I am entirely convinced that you are not a) "a burden on everyone" or b) "a born failure". You are obviously much loved and cared for here on VT and from what I know of you, you seem like a very nice person indeed.

I'm really sorry to hear about your depressive thoughts etc, and I really hope things start to improve for you soon, you really don't deserve to be going through this :(. I know this might sound like really stupid non-helpful advice, but it tends to help me a lot, so ima say it anyway:

Try and picture a future for yourself, one in which your troubles, while not necessarily becoming non-existent, are a lot easier to handle, and where you are happy and things seem better than they are now. Then remember that that future is not out of reach, but is there for everyone and will come around at some point, and keep focussing on that future.

Ok, reading it back I am pretty sure that may take the prize for the most useless and impractical advice ever, but like I said, I use it a lot.. meh..

Please remember you can talk to me or anyone else here anytime, there are so many people here who care :)

Hope things get better for you soon,
Rach
:hug:

[Requin]

Stephen. You are not a born failure.
You shouldn't need me and others to tell you this.

I remember when you talked about that church group discussion thing? You opened out about your shyness and stuff..i can't remember it all sorry.
But that was a really good and postitive step. You came out sort off. You told people about how you feel.

The fact that you have no idea about why you feel depressed shows that you maybe need someone to talk to. Ever considered a psychiatrist? Or however you spell them.
Do you have on actually? I'm not sure.

[thedudeman]

these depressive thoughts and feelings i have are getting more frequent again. but whats worse is that half the time i have no idea what the problem is. i feel so stupid. people try to help and ask me what is wrong? and i can't even answer sometimes because i don't even know myself. i just want to cry sometimes and i don't know why? i feel like such a burden on everyone, and that just makes me even more upset. i wish this would all go away, but everything i've tried so far just fails. i'm just a born failure.

well i was a big druggy and talked to a lot of kids who have this
depending on ur age it cud be growing up and changing, but if depression without a reason has been going on i would suggest seeing your doctor, you could have low seratonin levels and need sam-e or 5htp which naturally helps build seratonin blocks