Am I depressed or am I ok again ? Does anyone else feel 'in between?'

[lucybear]

Ok, I'm new to this site, but I have been suffering from depression and ocd and anxiety for a while now. I would love to talk to someone who is feeling kind of in between 'better' and 'depressed'

Is it normal to sometimes 'miss' being depressed? I mean, in reality I don't. I'm just so, kind of, lost. :/ Any reply would be so appreciated.

[Hyper]

A 3 minute bump really is not necessary

But You can talk to me if You want.. I've had depression for almost a decade so I've been depressed, good, inbetween and so on and on

[byee]

Welcome Lucy, I'm Sam. Let me see if I can help.

It's sounds odd, but it's actually true you can miss your symptoms. Actuallly, I think it's more the familiarity of them you might miss. Most people are 'security freaks' to one extent or another, we like predictability and consistency in most things, even if the predictability and consistency isn't such a great thing. So, as you get better and the symptoms fade, there's this 'hole' in there. And it doesn't feel so good. Yet.

Give it time, and it will beocme more 'normal', you'll get used to it and it will become the new consistency and predictability. Just don't rush back to the old ways of doing things to fill it, otherwise you'll be back where you started from.

[eikookmi]

Yeah i feel in between sort of. But then again i'm sort of content and happy.But yeah i miss the feelings, it's like every so often i need to break down and have those feelings again to feel ok. Like i need to go back to it all every so often to be ok again. Did i just repeat myself?

[NightFighter]

Hi Welcome to VT btw =]

Yep. Being in a depressive state is strangely comfortable and safe. I feel like im emotionless so no one can hurt me and if anything goes badly, i just dont care. It a nice feeling so sometimes its is nice to just go back to that. Just for a short breakdown so you can cry and get things sorted out in your head.

[thedudeman]

i think most people go through this in there teen years and early twentys, it may be a reaction to not feeling grounded and feeling grounded and those feelings switching off
i know what you mean about missing being depressed, i used to do that because anxiety feels so much worse then depression to me, and i had some good times on occasion when i went through depression years, so when i feel more depressed then anxious im happier about that
if it makes sense, im very confused at this point in my life to, my only advice is dont go towards drugs to solve your problems, it just magnifies them