when will it end?

[lee]

why does it seem like no matter how much i talk about how i feel, no matter how much therapy i get i can never stop cutting? i've gone months without cutting but after awhile i give in. i don't know what i can do.

i'm a dancer, my arm is full of scars that probably won't fade for a long time. i have to wear a short sleeved costume next month, what do i do? there's about 40 of 'em horizontally down my arm. do you think anybody will buy that i have a viscious ocd cat?

must i be so screwed up? the poll is just because i'm so f-ing bored.

[-Silence]

Why you always keep coming back to it, is because it's an addiction. As you probably know by now, you have subconsciencely trained yourself to cut when something upsets you. Now you don't know how to handle things w/o cutting. I don't know exactly when it will end..but keep trying. You can outdo this! You CAN win!

The only thing I can think of about the scars is scar reducer cream, I'm not sure if it'll work, but its worth a shot. Cover your whole arm in it if you have too. Also, If they ask, it doesnt really matter what you say because no matter what, they are going to think what they want. It's none of their business whats on your arm.

I hope everything gets better for you.

[lee]

thank you so much, you really helped me :-)

[Anonymous]

Try getting skin colored stockings, and cutting them to fin your arms. Either that, or put a bandage on your arm, and say you sprained it or something