I can't stop

[derkderpderp]

Hey.erm.i need help.like really need help.ive been self harming for a while now,but recently i had a good patch,and some major changes occurred which ultimately made me happier.
However,all of a sudden ive started to feel really depressed and scared at things that would have scared me before(i.e slamming doors or footsteps)all of which remind me of my dad and what he did.and i know its stupid but i cant help being scared shitless,and ive been attempting to commit suicide,because the fear just freaks me out-its unbearable!and now i self harm regularly,every few hours,because im scared of things i cannot see,of the dark,of being in cramped places,of loud sounds.hell ive even begun crying when we had a storm where i live and the thunder scared the hell outta me,i knew it was thunder,but my mind kept telling me it was something else,and i got scared,i didnt know what it was as fear just gripped me.owww i dont know what to do!i want to get rid of the fear by ending my life,but something always stops me!oww but i need to get rid of the fear!its unbearable.ow please help!

[pkid]

It may seem to you that committing suicide will help. But committing suicide will just cause more trouble for your loved ones, just imagine the pain your going to give them if you did such thing. Also if you've tried everything about concuring your fears you should go to a psychiatrist, or just talk about everything your going through with a close friend or relative

[Anonim]

i think you should talk to someone yo really trust about it. Someone who would tell you always the truth and what's right. Trust me, killing yourself it's not the answer. Don't take me wrong, but go to see a shrink, they'll really help you with all of your problems. I once went to a shrink and i only needed one session because she helped me a lot.

[SlightlySane]

Your post has drawn my attention. It makes me sad that you are so emotionaly stressed.

I want you to do one thing for me if you could. Look in a mirror and tell yourself that your life is valuable. That there is someone out there that needs you.

Your fear is understandable you said your dad did something and certain things remind you of him and scare you. It is very hard to get rid of this fear it may be something that can effect your for a long time. All you can do is express to someone how and scares yo u and why. You can also remind yourself that it's not the thing it reminds you of and try to think of something different when you here that sound.

If you need to talk I will always be willing to listen please PM me or IM me if you need to talk about anything.

[derkderpderp]

thanks guys, but like, i cant tend to make much sense of my fear, for example the thunder-

i know its thunder, yet im still scared and i dont know why, i dont know what the thuder represents apart from my dad beating me, and his ferocious boom of a voice

i cant talk to anyone i even remotely trust, as i feel ashamed that i feel something so damn stupid over something thats already happened, it sucks!


and i dont exactly know how to express these particular feelings, all i would do is cry because i get so scared, it sucks! and i dont know what to do!! oww

[Becky]

I think the best thing to do would be to see a professional as thye might be able to help you make sense of your feelings and you wont have to get embarassed because you wont really know them that well.
Good luck x