My depression and actions

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I've been depressed for a couple months. already tried to commit suicide failed and wasn't caught. then from all stress plus depression I started stealing (breaking and entering, shoplifting, and a little pick-pocketing) then after a while from doing this I committed a act of arson in my school got nearly expelled from school. Got sent Shepard Pratt (mental hospital) for a week came out and here I am doing graffiti and still stealing things with no accomplishments and the worst part is I hate doing things like graffiti and shoplifting but cant seem to stop because thats the only way that seems to get the fucking stress of my shoulders and out of my head for a little while then it the stress comes back and its worse than before and I have no fucking clue what to do about it. Please Help. Thank you

[Renegade.]

Hey. It sounds like you've gotten yourself in a vicious cycle. You try to relieve stress by doing the things that you are doing, but those things simply cause you more stress, and then because you feel even more stressed you go out and do one of these things, making you more stressed, and so on. My question is, have you ever talked to anybody about this? I'd really be surprised if no adult has come forth and offered you some help. Maybe talking could help you get the stress and the negative feelings out in the open instead of dealing with them in the ways that you have been. Also, try certain activities. Like, if you enjoy music, how about learning an instrument? Or if you like writing, you could always write in order to relieve your stress. There are so many things that you can do, try to experiment and try different things you think may help when you're feeling stressed, and you may be able to replace these negative habits with better and healthier ones.

[thesphinx]

Welcome to VT :) have you talked to anyone about this depression?
Because unfortunately with depression talking IS the cure, a pill can help ALOT but the only way you will actually get over this is talking to someone and it doesn't really matter who as long as they will listen to you.
Do you have any other way of getting stress out of your system?
Even if you have to punch a pillow or something physical just do SOMETHING that isn't destructive to you or other peoples property.

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I take medicine for my depression it helps a little but not much.
Also adults (at my school/parents) didn't offer me anything when they found I was depressed they put me in a mental hospital for a week and thats how I got my meds.
I'll also try to talk to my friend about my problems just to express my feelings

[byee]

It's been shown that the combo of meds + therapy have the best outcome in people diagnosed with depression. You've got half that, now you need to get the other.

Bethesda is a fairly large, sophisticated city, it should be easy to find a qualified psychologist to do therpay with. Talk with your folks about that, tell them you need to talk with one, and see they follow thru.

Until then, exert some self control, you can avoid acting on those urges, you're stronger than they are.

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I will exert self control (thank you Sam) and about the therapy issue I have therapist I just started seeing I've only been a few sessions but my mother is always there and don't know how to about go about getting her out of the therapy sessions because she's very aggressive.