I'm a failure of a human being

[Raize]

I really think I am. No matter where I go or who I talk to, nobody can seem to help me. I either get yelled at or told to "grow up!" which doesn't help at all.

I'll be 18 in August, and around my birthday, I'll be back in school. I hate school. I hate it so fucking much. It's instant depression when I"m there. But on the other side, I can't work at jobs either. I tried once, I made it through the 2nd training day before quitting. Insta depression there too.

Nobody would help me and I felt so stupid. I had no idea what to do or who to talk to. I don't want to work at retail ever again.

Then, I have no passion for anything. If I"m on a big project (even something I enjoy doing) I end up giving it up. So, I have no career for the future. I can't think up anything. I don't have *time* figure it out! I've been trying that since I was 13!

I'm such a fucking asswipe, I'm so lost and confused, and thinking about August makes everything worse. I don't know what to do about it. I just get told that I"m a pussy and the real world is tough and I won't be able to make it. I don't have any talents. I don't shine in one category.

I have no idea what to do about it. I've just been laying around the summer so far. No idea about my future or my career or anything.

[YourFriend]

First of all, never think of yourself in such bad way, you are a human being, like any other and you aren't worthless.... the ones that are failures are the ones telling you are....

[Raize]

They're not telling me directly, but it's super hinted at. Every time I see my mom, she yells at me for something. (even things I didn't do) It's always been that. For example, I was happy that I managed to pass math, and she was mad that I didn't make a B.

I'm told to goto college, and become a doctor or something. But I can't do that. So when I turn 18...I don't know what I"m going to do. I can't see my future, at all.

[Viral Death]

You are a perfect human being! Dont listin to people they want to put you down they think its funny. Well in fact its not funny at all that is how suicide comes into play! Just hang in there you just bumped into a down in life you will meet a up soon and you will have joy and fun!

[foof1]

everyone has their triumphs and their failures. just because this happens not to be the best time for you does not mean that you are a failure as a human being. IT IS HUMAN TO FAIL

[Raize]

Thanks guys.

I've decided to set a goal for myself (I never use goals) and looked into alternative opportunities for jobs and such. I'm going to try super hard to motivate myself.