what is this feeling

[Zan0ra]

hey guys and galls, you all know me. Just you're regular guy. I have a question. A feeling I get that is like no other. I just want to know how many people get this.

It all started when I was between 10-11 years old. sitting in class. This girl and I were supposed to act out the 2 roles in a book. One as a man. On as a girl. Typically, everyone was doing it the same way (the guy acting the man etc). However, me and her decided to do a gender swap as a laugh. She then said she would bring in a bright pink dress, which make-up and stuff and bang. I got the feeling.

Another time. was when we were in two separate cues. One for the boys. One for the girls, trying on new school blazers. Just looking over at the girls line made me think that's where I was supposed to be.

It's a feeling of wanting to be treated like a girl. From a girl. This sort of all makes me horny, and I don't understand why. I have done things such as putting on some of my sisters clothing while everyone was out of the house, actually masturbating over being a part of all this. But I just don't get why this feeling is so great.

I do not feel like I am a girl. More like I want to be treated like one. I guess it doesn't make much sense, but I just want to know if anyone can respond to all this

Thanks for reading :)

-Zan

[Raize]

so, lemme get this straight. You don't feel like a girl, but it turns you on to act/dress like one?

Maybe you're just into drag?

[byee]

hi Ryan, it's been a while!

I think it might be a good idea to try to figure out what it is about that 'girl stuff' you like. Is it just their clothes? Their sexuality? Or is it emotional, is there something about the way you perceive girls that's arousing for you here?

[Zan0ra]

I will try to explain it the best I can.

If guys started wearing bra's and girls didn't (bad example :P) I wouldn't get aroused by it because all guys wear it. I think it's just anything that would make me feel like a girl, I would enjoy. It's nothing to do with there sexuality. I am very happily gay (the feeling that I got for girls in the past turned out to be a close relationship)

Guys I see as my lovers. Girls I see as my friends, maybe all this is just trying to fit in (for instance, making new friends)

It' just a weird amusement that I can't control

-Zan

[byee]

Ryan, if you've determined that girls primarily are 'friends' and guys are more sexual for you, then wearing womens clothes (esp. at 14) might be more than an 'amusement'. But, using your term here, do you know what's 'amusing' about it? Are you OK with this and it's implications?

Being gay isn't so much about what you wear or how you identify your gender. Gay guys still consider themselves guys, they use the men's room, they enjoy wearing men's clothes. For the most part, they enjoy being guys, and all that goes with that. What you're saying is that you're gay (which is emotional), but you also identify with the physical aspect of being a girl. That's a bit more complicated, and speaks more to how you feel (and experience) yourself as a guy, the actual physical component of that.

[Zan0ra]

I am not okay with what I do. I don't know why I enjoy it I just do, what I am enjoying about it is the fact that it makes me feel more like a girl. I am fine with being a guy. I am just worried that all this will have some explosive affect on my future, relationships etc.

I have been taught on this site that any way to masturbate isn't abnormal. But I feel that mine is just going over the top. I don't know what else I can say. I am trying to stop wearing clothes now as I am disgusted with myself for doing it in the first place. But I cannot control what I feel when these situations occur.

thanks so much for helping with this sam

-Zan

[kitkat]

i get what u r saying somtimes id like to be treated like a boy its normal

[MichaelAdams1993]

Sounds like you are really confused. I would say tha tyou are simply really in touch with your feminane (wow, didn't spell that right) side which may come from being gay. However, I think you are probably getting horny from it because you identify being a girl with being attracted to guys. Take some time and try and slowly take yourself out of these situations if it really bugs you but what your doing still has a normal side. I wouldn't put on anymore of your sisters clothes though since, well, they are your sisters.

PM me if you need to talk more.

[Zan0ra]

I guess all that makes sense, I don't see what else can be said here. Thanks guys so much :D

[byee]

Ryan, do you have someone trustworthy you can talk to about all this? It might be very helpful in sorting it out. No one should feel disgust with any aspect of who they are.

You can try to use your imagination more when masturbating rather than actually acting the fantasies out. That would mean 'keeping it in your head' instead of actually putting the clothes on (whatever else you might do with them). The longer you do actually do that, use the clothes, the harder it will be to stop and the more likely it will become that it might interfere with relationships, as you mention.

People have all kinds of fantasies that are arousing to them, and if they *work* that's fine, b/c it's pleasurable, and perhaps most imortantly, it's private, no on else sees them or knows of them. Until you get a better understanding about what exactly it is that is so powerful about cross dressing, you might practice fantasizing about it. It might take some time to master, b/c you're used to the 'real thing', but after a while, you might find your brain is very able at spinning some very vivid and arousing images!

[Ladysman]

Maybe you like cross dressing like me i like doing BDSM its so sexy i LOVE dressing like a woman and play with it like id have my gf dress like a guy and act like a guy and me a girl i love being the woman it makes me feel good ;)

[HOLEinyoursoul]

looks like we got ourselves a Dr. Frankenfurter :D

[Ladysman]

I dont look as creepy as him when i dress up hahah

[kingpinnn]

I will try to explain it the best I can.

If guys started wearing bra's and girls didn't (bad example :P) I wouldn't get aroused by it because all guys wear it. I think it's just anything that would make me feel like a girl, I would enjoy. It's nothing to do with there sexuality. I am very happily gay (the feeling that I got for girls in the past turned out to be a close relationship)

Guys I see as my lovers. Girls I see as my friends, maybe all this is just trying to fit in (for instance, making new friends)

It' just a weird amusement that I can't control

-Zan



you could either get escited because you like being unique, and dangerous.

or you just like to be pampered and treated like a girl because you admire their lifestyle. i kind of understand, because i get the feeling myself a few times, but not as powerfully as you i think.