Depressive Poetry

[Holding On*]

Some poems I wrote within the last week, starting with the first i wrote then ending it the latest:

I sit here alone in my room
Wondering why I am staring at you,
And my thoughts begin to wonder
Wondering at why I am even here
And why I just can't be dead?

The light falls on you,
You shine like the North Star.
You catch my attention
And I know you won't ignore me
So I begin to talk again

I go through the day's events
How bad I feel about our last meeting
Yet how glad I am to see you again
How I know it is wrong to visit you
Yet I love it all the same

Best friends forever, you and I
We should never have be forced to part
I missed seeing you, talking to you
But now you are back,
And I don't want you to leave again

My iPod changes and the next song plays
It's our favourite song
The song we used to always play
The song we know every word to
That song that is our song.

Alas it is time to go
For world war three has begun
I say goodbye, hug you one last time
But I smile knowing well be together soon
I need you to be here for me again

I need to feel loved once again


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Ever get the feeling
That your on rewind
While the world is on fast forward?

Ever get the feeling
Your on your own
In your own little dream world?

Ever get the feeling
That you just don't belong
On this Planet?

I do
This has been my life
The last three years

I have had enough
I want a change
I need the change

But what happens if
deep deep down
You don't really want to?

You would rather stay
Here in this world
Where you are in control?

Or at least you feel it
You feel like your in control
And youlike it

what then?
What are you meant to do?
Someone? Anyone?

I should change
I could change
I don't want to change...

This is me
This is my life
I am content.


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I am running down the hall
Running down to the pool
Where I will go swim with Momma and Poppa
Where I will splish and splash and shout ho-ray!

My pigtails flying high in the air
My smile reaching ear to ear
My doll trailing on the floor to my side
My face a picture of delight


My bikini fits nice and snug
The one with butterflies and flowers,
pink and purple, bright and colourful
and my goggles sit high on my head

I jump in the pool and see my friends
I swim over there to play some games
We jump and swim about
lots of fun to be had

People around me having fun
Not caring about anyone
While I am here worrying
Worrying what will happen if they see

See the pain I feel
The pain you caused me
The scars you gave my arms
The life you fucked up

I am running down the hall
Running down to the pool
Where I will see Momma and Poppa
Where I am running from yet another Doctor...

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Thoughts?

[NightFighter]

:] You are truly talented!
My favourite was the first one. You should keep writing.

[Holding On*]

:] You are truly talented!
My favourite was the first one. You should keep writing.

Thanks! :) The only thing is they were all written when I was heavily depressed and wanted to Self harm... xD You can probably tell that though lol. The first one... well I hadn't written poetry in over 8 months, and came out with that - was quite pleased! I don't really sit and format it and change words and think of certain things, I just sit and write. :)

[NightFighter]

:] Maybe you could try to do some happier poetry whenever you're in that mood!
I am honeslty impressed :)..... i wish i could write poetry, ive tried but its embarressingly bad :P

[Holding On*]

:] Maybe you could try to do some happier poetry whenever you're in that mood!
I am honeslty impressed :)..... i wish i could write poetry, ive tried but its embarressingly bad :P

I did try on Friday night when I was happy, but it just didn't work. It didn't really flow or make sense, and I was having generally, a hard time. D:

I never really considered myself as good with poetry due to the fact I can only write when I am down. I have tried in many emotions, but I found that it is only ever good when I am feeling depressed. =/ Like in English class, it fails most of the time as I can't always write what I want, even if I am in the mood to and know it will be good, in fear of what others will think of the topics I write about. xD

[NightFighter]

Well, that just means you have to practise at it! :P
That sounds really annoying i know but tis true! :)