Everything just sucks!

[derkderpderp]

Argh,im so stuck right now,and torn between decisions:
I hate my life,its just problem after problem after problem,and then i get stress from school (currently going through my GCSEs),and to top it all off i get shit from every corner just because of my interests and how i exclude myself.
I dont know what to do!ive attempted suicide a countless number of times,because i just want to stop putting certain people in situations where they get angry at me,i want to stop being bullied,i want to be free.and if i do it,they will all be happy because i wont be there to annoy them by living,so they wont need to get angry at me.
Its like my stupid existence is worthless,i can feel the weight of my anger i havent vented out,and the sadness and desperation of actually living without something bad happening,but i can see a solution-kill myself and be rid of the pain,but i dont want to die,i want to live like a person,not a dirty creature,bc thats what they treat me like.i dont know what to do,please help!

[wolfman775]

I guess I kinda know how you feel about bieng bullied. I get builied every day except when I am off school and people have told me that the world would be better without me, even said to my face "Fhiannan, Just go and commit sucide because then we can all live in peace" but I obvously havent. Realy you just need to talk to people in the same situation as your self and get some freinds and once you see that not everybody hates you the world will seem a better place, and as for the bullies who cares what they think! You know, this time last year, I could litteraly say I had no freinds what so ever but now I have freinds and the world seems brighter. I dont care that people punch me every time I pass them in the corridor because I know that its not the be all and end all. There is more to life than that, it just takes a while to see it.

Hope this helps.

[derkderpderp]

Thanks dude,but how do you cope?and the really crap thing wid me,is that i am in asian communities most of the time,im asian myself,and i get bullied because im different.and i just dont know how to cope.do you have any suggestions?

[Zazu]

Simple solution (although I know it may not be simple to carry out): tell someone about everything that is going on between you and your Dad (as you said about in other threads) as I feel that what he's done to you is causing a lot of problems still.

No one should ever have to put up with bullying in life, no one should ever have to put up with advice. Sadly, it happens, but it can be stopped. There are many different people you can go and talk to; the police, a teacher from your school, a counsellor, a doctor, childline etc. What your dad has done to you in the past, and what people are still continusing to do to you, is not right at all, and can never be justified.

Suicide is not the answer to your problems, and isn't the answer to any problems in fact. You are not worthless, people make you feel like that. You haven't run out of hope, this isn't the end of the tunnel, if you go and tell the right authorities, they will listen to you, you can get something done about all of this. Don't let the people who try to ruin your life win by making them feel happy; you don't have to do that, they're the ones in the wrong here, not you dude. You don't have to die, you won't, you will be able to live like a free person, but you have to push and push and tell the right people until something is done.

If you need to vent things to someone, arrange to see a counsellor / doctor, they're professionals and they're there to listen to you, and they can help you with the other abuse that you've been suffering. If you don't feel that you can talk to someone in real life about things ans just need to vent, you can always chat to people from here, there are loads of us who are willing to listen, including me (my msn is in my profile).

Don't let things carry on like this, speak up against the abuse until something is done.

[wolfman775]

A realy good way to cope is to find people in your area that have similar trouble and make freinds with them, because what I noticed is that if you hang around with people then bullies will be intimidated by the large number of you and just not bother. But realy you should tell a teacher or something to get them sorted out, just because you only need to put up with them till you leave school doesen't mean you have to. but remember that once you leave school you will be the one with a good job because they spend all their time bullying you they cant be learning at the same time, and once you leave school you never need to see them again. But dont leave school early just to get away from them, its not a good idea. Oh and bullies usualy leave school asap anyway because they find it so boring.

Again, hope this helps.