I just can't think straight..

[MysticalBurrito]

-Removed-

[NightFighter]

Heya ForeverYours :) I cant use the quote buttons because ther arent working for me today so il just make do.

"Is there a goal in my life?"
You know theres a goal in your life! Everyone has a goal. Whether it be just to survive, get married with children, travel the world, make someone happy. You know what goal you have but you have to work hard for it. You have a purpose.

"I haven’t made any difference in the world"
Yes you have! Ever seen the movie Its a Wonderful Life? (incase you havent) Its about an angel who shows a guy what it would be like if he never existed. Turns out a lot of people would be worse off e.g his brother would have died. You definately make a difference but no one really knows to what extent they do unless you're lucky enough for an angel to show you! :)

"He said he would be there for me he never was he just left me…"
He might have been scared to know about your ED. If he might not have understand it. It doesnt mean he doesnt care. If he has just left you then try to forget about him. You dont need a friend like that. No one does. Good luck to him if thats how he treats people!

"I’m sick of trying it’s not worth it
My life is worth nothing"
Its worth it! It is! The good times outweigh the bad times! Please hang in there! One day you'll be glad you're alive. Believe me that day will come if you just stay around for the bad times. It'll get better.

"I’m a fake
I act happy so I don’t worry the only friends I have left…"
Just because you dont show when your upset doesnt mean you're a fake. I think you need to talk to your friends. People need support from their friends but you wont get that if you dont ask for it. They'll just think you're always happy. Who know, maybe if you open up to them you'll get closer to them :)
Anyway, if one of my friends was always happy, id get worried about her! Its part of being human. People can be happy and sad. No one is only happy or only sad.

"I don’t want to talk to my mom…"
I can fully understand that! Last time i told my mum something she got worried and angry. She has a skin problem so whenever she gets stressed red patched come up. So when i convided in her she pointed to her skin and said "Its your fault." Its not a bad thing to not want to talk to your mum aslong as you have other people to talk to.

"I want someone who will love me no matter what…
No matter how many times I mess up."
Dont worry! You'll find that special someone. Remember you are only 14. These things take time. I believe theres someone for everyone in the world but you just have to search until you find them.

"Ive messed up my life so much in such a little time"
Hmm im sure you havent messed your life up! If you think you have then you can try to make things right. You have time. Be positive and make your life better. You have to do that for yourself!

pm me if you ever want to talk! I'll be here :]

[MysticalBurrito]

Thank you :hug:

I guess there might be a goal in my life but sometimes it feels like I'm walking around blind

[NightFighter]

:D Your very welcome! :D *Big Hug*

Again i would send that cute hug smiley but the damn button doesnt work!

[MysticalBurrito]

Lols Thank again :)

[The Wallflower]

Is there a goal in my life?
Was it just some sick trick pulled on me by God?
I haven’t made any difference in the world
I cant stand any of this anymore, First off ive lost my only friend he found out about my not eating….
He said he would be there for me he never was he just left me…
I’m sick of trying it’s not worth it
My life is worth nothing
I’m a fake
I act happy so I don’t worry the only friends I have left…
I don’t want to talk to my mom…
Her last blow up scared me, no matter how many “I love you‘s” I hear it could not melt the ice around my life
I want someone who will love me no matter what…
No matter how many times I mess up.
Yesterday I was cleaning my room; I found this note thing from camp
They said to write a note to our future husbands….It was a note about how the day went, what I wanted my future husband to be, and some other stuff…
I can’t believe ive changed so much within such little time = [
Ive messed up my life so much in such a little time

I think the same things sometimes. The thing that comforts me is that I realized that my existence has affected peoples lives. If you didn't exist people wouldn't be who they are today... Does that make any sense?