It's weird being in the closet.

[MoveAlong]

Don't you think it would be?

Basically I live a straight "lifestyle". I find myself in a lot of situations where I have to act, like an actor. I basically act whenever I need to (it's sorta hilarious in my mind). Like, oh yeah, look at that chick, she's hot. Or I like light brunettes.
Or make gay jokes (not hateful, just stereotypical and it IS sorta funny. I would know, I'm gay ;-))

It's weird. I have so many friends and I've made so many friends because they think that I'm straight. But I think I would lose about half of them if I came out.
Since my friends are one of the three most important things to me, I can't let that happen. So basically I have to be a different person. But it's not really that unnatural to me (to hide it), because it's so essential, so it feels natural. Natural to act straight O_o

I bet people wouldn't be surprised if I was gay, but if they knew it, they probably would think less of me.

And that really bothers me because I want to become a teacher. So it's like, umm, do I just stay single? Or just act straight at my job? Or tell them? Or totally not say anything? What?

Yeah. It's complicated lol :P By the way I'm not really asking a question. I'm just expressing myself.

[dwindala]

How long have you been ITC?

[ShatteredWings]

^you say that like he chose to be gay...

Meh i don't see the problem with being a teacher, and gay... what is it gonna corrupt children now? (answer: NO)

I find it odd, mostly around my parents.

Moooossttt of my friends have either figured it out, or i told them.. i can think of like... three or four people i'm with often who don't 'get it' yet.
I hate lying mostly. It'sreally annoying to just be like "Yeah i'll probaby have a BF sometime next year" knowing i'll NEVER have one... or if i do, it'll have to be more or less mutual "I am NOT interested in you that way" ...

[Maverick]

Personally I think its fun to talk about hot chicks with the guys. Used to be weird for me at first but its not a problem.

[Skeln]

Well yeah many people have to hide their sexuality for years because of the fear of loosing friends or being made fun of. Just keep it up with the acting until you think you're ready to fully come out. If need be, then only tell a few of your closest friend who you know you can trust, but you don't have to it just helps releive the stress of lying.

Also, there is no problem with you wanting to be a teacher. I just recommend you keep it a secret, just be those teachers who don't get too personal. It's not your students business and so you are not obligated to tell them, however if parents were to find out they might make a scene but as long as you don't let it affect your class then yeah there's no problem with it. Do what you want in life, it's your choice.

[MoveAlong]

How long have you been ITC?

Good question...probably 3 years now? Yeah.
But when you're faced with it every day it seems longer. Then again it's almost like it's not a part of my life O_o told you it was weird.

[punkjake]

Tell them ur bi they would like you more than(mounth or 5) say i experimented and realized im gay.Or straightly come out 2 them

[Mmking]

I have a gay teacher at my school, but I think its hard because some people make fun and some dont but no one says it to his face. I feel bad, I am curious but I dont know yet, and I think all people should be accepted for who they are not their sexuallity!! Email me if you need someone to talk to!

[redcar]

Personally I think its fun to talk about hot chicks with the guys. Used to be weird for me at first but its not a problem.
Couldn't agree more with this.

And if they know you are gay it becomes more fun because they think you have some sort of 6th sense where you know what they think. Guys can love having a gay friend just as much as a girl loves having one.

But as for wanting to become a teacher. Professional life and personal life should be kept seperate. What you do in your own time is up to you and has nothing to do with your career.

[MyNameIsJack]

its normal