ew..... just ew

[ShatteredWings]

i'm gaining weight.

i've been trying to aviod this fact..for awhile.

Intnentionally wearing clothes that are atleast a size too big...
avoiding mirrors...


then today for the first time in ever i put pants on tht (used to) fit and i can barely zip them (thery're also my only black jeans that are clean atm)

Ugh.
It's notisable
means more than ten pounds...

FUCK fuck fuck.

I know i should still be gaining some weight
i know it's not bad

but...why do i suddenly feel so discusting?

[Truth]

You might feel as if it is disgusting, but trust me, no one else thinks it is.

[Beautiful Obsession]

i agree with Truth, its not discusting - im presuming your recovering from an eating disorder? so the more weight you gain (which is good) your going to be thinking its bad because you suffered so much losing the weight and now your putting it back on, but trust me its a good thing. x

[TODAYisTHEday]

You think its discusting because not everyone is "supermodel sexy". I'm not sexy nor hot (in my opinion) and thats not me just being modest. I think I'm fat and I only weigh 105 pounds, but as the others said you shouldn't think anyone cares if you're a little on the "chubby" side. If someone makes a mean comment its either just plain mean or its them trying to encourage you to lose the few pounds.

Also if someone judges you by how you look then they are not a true friend or companion. A true friend and or companion will not judge on how you look and will stick with you on complete and total personality.

[Axellance]

You think its discusting because not everyone is "supermodel sexy". I'm not sexy nor hot (in my opinion) and thats not me just being modest. I think I'm fat and I only weigh 105 pounds, but as the others said you shouldn't think anyone cares if you're a little on the "chubby" side. If someone makes a mean comment its either just plain mean or its them trying to encourage you to lose the few pounds.

Also if someone judges you by how you look then they are not a true friend or companion. A true friend and or companion will not judge on how you look and will stick with you on complete and total personality.

Im willing to bet that she is not at all on the "chubby" side and everyone around her thinks she looks better with the extra 10 pounds because she is making her way to a healthy weight. you should try not to focus on size or weight and focus on how your body feels, i bet you have more energy and you feel better in general, trust me your body will thank you for the weight.

[Antares]

It's time to be healthy. If you are getting back to a BMI that is healthy, thats good!
You may feel "disgusting" but eventually you will get to your new healthy body :)