sienna.
June 10th, 2009, 03:17 AM
i got my feeding tube put in today.
and about an hour ago, i was freaking out, having a little panic attack, and i tried to pull the tube out.
and out came the blood.
there is blood about the size of a large apple on the carpet.
and Coop came home before i got time to clean it up.
and he was so happy when he came through the door,
then he saw me, like crying and all pale.
then he saw the blood on the floor.
and his face just dropped.
the look in his eye!!
it kills me!!
he was so upset and dissapointed in me.
his eyes all teared up.
he asked me if i was okay and all that.
and i said i was fine now.
i went to say something,
and he just said not now sienna.
and went into our room.
HE WAS SO DISSAPOINTED IN ME!!
my heart is breaking!!
so i have decided.
I AM GETTING BETTER!!
THIS IS NO LONGER GOING TO TAKE OVER ME AND CONTROL MY LIFE!!!
I WONT LET IT!
tomorrow i am going to go to my doctor, talk about going back into a inpatient treatment centre, and he always reccomends.
I AM GOING TO BEAT THIS!!!!
and about an hour ago, i was freaking out, having a little panic attack, and i tried to pull the tube out.
and out came the blood.
there is blood about the size of a large apple on the carpet.
and Coop came home before i got time to clean it up.
and he was so happy when he came through the door,
then he saw me, like crying and all pale.
then he saw the blood on the floor.
and his face just dropped.
the look in his eye!!
it kills me!!
he was so upset and dissapointed in me.
his eyes all teared up.
he asked me if i was okay and all that.
and i said i was fine now.
i went to say something,
and he just said not now sienna.
and went into our room.
HE WAS SO DISSAPOINTED IN ME!!
my heart is breaking!!
so i have decided.
I AM GETTING BETTER!!
THIS IS NO LONGER GOING TO TAKE OVER ME AND CONTROL MY LIFE!!!
I WONT LET IT!
tomorrow i am going to go to my doctor, talk about going back into a inpatient treatment centre, and he always reccomends.
I AM GOING TO BEAT THIS!!!!