Torn.

[nachtspiegel]

I have the way picked out.
I don't need to be talked out of it.
I'm just a little short of having the nerve.
I don't know what led me to post here.
I'm just not fussed this time around.

[sebbie]

I think you chose to post here because you know you don't want to. I suggest you take 5 minutes to get some fresh air. Then speak to an appropriate adult.

[dstnyisurs]

I agree. You posted here because you have doubts.
Lovie, please don't. There are people who care about you and people who don't want you to die. I don't want you to die. Please think about this, and please don't do it. You have your life ahead of you to get better and be happy. Talk to me if you ever EVER need it, and please don't hurt yourself or others. Please.

[nachtspiegel]

I'm existing in limbo right now.
My mood changes every five minutes.
I was almost asleep last night when a sudden rage send me flying from the bed to grab a knife and lock myself in the bathroom.

Oh, and I guess that I do have doubts.
I do wonder how things will turn out.
I'm not really in "crisis mode" as usual when I get like this.
I don't feel like I'm really hard pressed.

I go to see my therapist on Thursday at noon.
I want to tell her, but I don't think I can.
It's my last session with her.

[sebbie]

I go to see my therapist on Thursday at noon.
I want to tell her, but I don't think I can.
It's my last session with her.

If you want to tell her, then you should do regardless of it being your last session. It will work out for the best.

[nachtspiegel]

I will most likely be going to another therapist, but I don't want to sour the last time that I speak to her.
She won't know what's going on with me after she's gone.
I want her to think that I'm better than when I first came to her.
She really is good at what she does.

[optimashprime]

I will most likely be going to another therapist, but I don't want to sour the last time that I speak to her.
She won't know what's going on with me after she's gone.
I want her to think that I'm better than when I first came to her.
She really is good at what she does.

if you say she is good let her help please

tell people you know they can help alot more then we can

please hold on
fight this

if you ever need anything pm me and ill help

all the best
elliot

[nachtspiegel]

Thanks. :hug:

I was in the car with a friend of mine earlier.
I thought about having her drop me off at the hospital.
I couldn't do it, though.
She doesn't know.
She thinks I'm fine.
I wasn't going to do that.

Every day, I wake up and think "I'm still here."
These next few days will tell.

[dstnyisurs]

You sound like you want help, but you're putting it off...
Silly Goose, you're supposed to put off hurting yourself. :)
Okay, didn't help. But I hope you're feeling okay.. please talk to someone.
It'll make you feel better...