I'm so flippin' tired!

[Pirate]

I've been really depressed recently since the boyfriend split (as most of you know) and things are not getting better, they're getting worse.
Just to top it all off, I'm not sleeping. If I do get to sleep, then I dream every single night WITHOUT FAIL (I'm not exaggerating) about the ex, either us back together, or him with another girl, or him being horrible to me.. etc.

It's driving me insane. Not only to I dread going to sleep, even though I'm exhausted, I wake up every morning feeling horrible, so it's difficult trying to 'have a fresh start' and get on with things when I get up every day already feeling like crap. Especially as sometimes, I don't remember the dream vividly (although normally it comes back to me), I just feel horrid.

How the hell do I make this go away? I've tried hot drinks and showers before bed, etc, but the dreams are still there. I've tried to 'clear my mind' and not think about it too much before going to sleep..

It's literally every time I close my eyes. :(

[Rutherford The Brave]

You kind of have to just tell yourself that your strong. I know you are, I mean dealing with this is certainly not easy. It's a matter of inner strength and the will to make them go away. Also remember that your sub concious mind is trying to tell you something. Now what I would recommend, is simple. Maybe go for a walk, really take some time to think things through. I usaully meditate and I know it sounds dumb; as a result, I often feel refreshed and I find myself focusing in on the things that need to get done.

[Pirate]

Thank you, I didn't think of going for a walk. If the weather holds, I might try that tonight. I've never tried meditation, but I've always been curious. I'm an easily distracted person though, so I always thought I'd find it difficult.

xx

[MyNameIsJack]

i know how it feels like! i tried the same thing that native rose said, i just think that im strong and i can deal with this, and it wont hurt me anymore..

[dstnyisurs]

Here are some strategies;
Try eating your dinner earlier and not eating or drinking anything (even water) before bed. For most people, any substance stimulates the mind and makes it more difficult to fall asleep.
You could try writing in a journal before you fall asleep. This sometimes helps people because their feelings are all there in front of them where they can see, and they can unload before they go to sleep. Don't stay up writing the journal though!
Another strategy, get up earlier. Do more things that are mentally and physically draining. While it could be a tiny bit stressful until you get back into the rythem of sleep, having a busy day will make you more likely to fall into a dreamless sleep.
You could go to your doctor and ask for some medication, but that would mean stopping cutting missy, because your doctor may give you some sort of examination before he gives out some way of helping you.
Reading a book before you fall asleep can help clear your mind or calm your mind, or distract your thoughts so you sleep to a different tune and not to the tune of your X-man.
Also, here is one last strategy. Find a postition you're comfortable with, and envision your feet falling asleep. Take your time and be patient, picturing a peaceful sleep coming over your feet. It will take concentration so you won't be able to think of ex-flame-man. Keep envisioning your feet falling asleep (covering your feet with sand, like at the beach is a helpful thing to envision too). Keep doing that, envisioning up your legs and to your chest, and your arms, until there is a peaceful calm over you. It may help you to fall asleep and have calm dreams.
I hope I've helped. =) Hope you're feeling better.

[Pirate]

Thank you :] I always read before bed, I love reading, but I'm not very good at keeping a journal.. I think I'll try a little harder. I like the putting-your-body-to-sleep thing. My dad told me about that when I was younger, but I haven't thought of it in years. Think I'll be doing that tonight. :]
I woke up with my alarm this morning, then fell asleep again (and was almost late for work!) and had another dream. :( So that was two in one night.. Not fun.