Ugh

[Pirate]

This is more of a rant than a question, although I'll welcome any suggestions on what to do

I really feel like I've had enough. I've never had much luck with boyfriends, it's always ended badly with me clueless and heartbroken. But I really really loved this one, and he was my best friend, and it was nothing like any of the others. We had something really special and we were very close.
15 months, and he's thrown it all away, and now he's not talking to me..
I saw him last night for the first time in two weeks, and he pretended I didn't exist. It hurt so much(still does), I thought I was going to vom or something.
I hate this. :(
I don't understand how everything we had, this brilliant relationship (which only went a bit funny near the end because we lived together but with his best friend which caused a few arguements) could suddenly mean nothing to him.

I'm just drifting about now, everything feels really pointless. I'm trying to go out and have fun, and just enjoy myself, but it feels fake. Everything feels fake. I took an overdose last week.. and I'm really tempted, at moments like this, to do it again but make it work.. I don't want to die as such, just get the hell out of my head and away from this feeling, which is only getting worse.

:( I'm really really fed up.

[Truth]

Trust me when i say this. : We are teenagers, we do not know what love is even if we believe we do.

No guy is worth your life. Not a single one.

[Tori]

Every deep relationship ending is hard, especially if it seems like the other person just doesn't care as much anymore.. But I guess if you can’t persuade yourself to move on and get better on your own, maybe you should think about your other friends.

If you hurt yourself or don't let yourself move on, it’s likely to cause your other loved ones pain. And for what? A guy that breaks up with you after 15 months and pretends you don’t exist? Perhaps his reasons behind breaking up were valid, and perhaps he’s ignoring you because it hurts him or something like that.. But still, being angry or annoyed or upset with is one thing; being treated like you don’t exist is another. Nobody deserves that.

That's not to say you can't wallow for a little while. The recommended amount seems to be half the relationship.. so if you find yourself moping for more than 7 and a half months, I'd get worried. Until then, it is actually good for you to get it out of your system.