i really love him, why am i scared.??

[sienna.]

coop (my boyfriend) decided to take me out.
just for fun. because we fight so much about my eating disorder.
and he said he wasn't going to push me to eat and all that. just for that night.
so we went out, we went to the movies and other places.
and OMG! i had so much fun!!
we laughed and smiled and kissed. i had the best time.
then when we got home, i was tired (as i always am, never have energy)
so we went on the bed.
we were just laying there when he decided to start tickeling me.
and omg i am so tickelish that it's crazy!!
then he was holding him self up on top of me.
i was just looking into his eyes and then he kissed me.
it was the most passionate kiss ever!!!
i looked into his eyes and that's when it hit me.

I LOVE HIM!!
I AM SO MADLY IN LOVE WITH HIM.
AND THE SCARED ME!!
it scared me to death.

you know.. we then had sex.
it was amazing.

he is at work now, so i am sitting here thinking about it.
i love him so much. i really do.
and it makes me feel happy, but at the same time scared to death!!

WHY AM I SCARED???

[Rutherford The Brave]

I really have no clue. Maybe because he's acting differently from what you are used to. I dont think you should be scared he loves you and you him. Its quite simple, dont worry I hope things will be alright.