Need some advice and reassurance

[Miss Punk]

Ok well for a while now I've been feeling more and more lonely, and I think my depression is coming back the way I feel every day, and I know I really need help but I have no one to talk to. I'm supposed to make a doctor's appointment but I hate the gp and can't do it, so nothing's really changed because of my own pathetic inability to make a phone call and face telling a professional. I think I've lost all my 'friends', no one has tried to contact me in weeks, and my best friend who found out I cut is no longer talking to me. I really wanted to tell her everything, because there's so much she doesn't know about me, like my past depression and the things I went through, things that without she can't begin to know why I'm falling again. As far as she knows I've just made a few cuts on my arm and drank myself stupid for no reason, but now that she's not talking, it's going to be even harder to bring up any of this. Anyway I hate sounding melodramatic like I'm feeling sorry for myself and looking for attention. And so I'm really not sure what to do because I'm never going to have the strength to make that appointment while all the time my situation gets worse, and I'm scared I will end up wanting to kill myself again like last time, and I promised myself I would never let myself go there again. I'm so alone. Any advice? :(

[Truth]

Try to make some new friends, or tell online friends (Online friends help more, and they don't judge you as often.) Or, try to mend yours and your friends friendship

[Miss Punk]

It's not that easy. I have online friends I can talk to, but there's only so much they can do. And making new friends in my state would be hard, I can barely get myself up in the morning anymore, and I'm struggling with every day, it makes it so hard to do anything, and being with other people just irritates me and makes me want to get away. I want to go back to my friends but I don't think they'll want me any more because I'm just a bad drunk and a cutter and I don't want to bring them down with my problems, I'm sure they have better things to do than listen to me.

[Truth]

Your not bad, you know. So what, your a drunk and a cutter? So many people are, and if their your friends, they would help you with your problems, why not try talking to an ex-cutter/alcoholic, or try to get professional help.

[Jalin]

Instead of you waiting for them to come in touch with you, why don't you contact them?
Sometimes you have to work to get the things you need/want..

Cutting will only put you in more of a depression.. it doesn't really help either.
Just attempt to make different friends. <33

[Miss Punk]

Instead of you waiting for them to come in touch with you, why don't you contact them?
Sometimes you have to work to get the things you need/want..

Cutting will only put you in more of a depression.. it doesn't really help either.
Just attempt to make different friends. <33

Do you think they would want to talk to me? Because obviously it hasn't taken them 5 minutes to forget about me. They're happier without me.

[phoebefreak]

Your 'best friend' is not what friends are supposed to be. Supporting and caring. We can't make you stop cutting yourself but we can ask you. If you really hate your GP that much, change to a different GP. I've been in a situation before when you feel when everyone hates you but somehow i knew it wasnt true. Live your life how you want to live it. make some new friends and try and be happy. You only get one shot at life so live it to the best. x

From phoebefreak

[Miss Punk]

Thanks
Sorry I realise my thinking isn't really making it easy to help me
I do appreciate the advice

[optimashprime]

Ok well for a while now I've been feeling more and more lonely, and I think my depression is coming back the way I feel every day, and I know I really need help but I have no one to talk to. I'm supposed to make a doctor's appointment but I hate the gp and can't do it, so nothing's really changed because of my own pathetic inability to make a phone call and face telling a professional. I think I've lost all my 'friends', no one has tried to contact me in weeks, and my best friend who found out I cut is no longer talking to me. I really wanted to tell her everything, because there's so much she doesn't know about me, like my past depression and the things I went through, things that without she can't begin to know why I'm falling again. As far as she knows I've just made a few cuts on my arm and drank myself stupid for no reason, but now that she's not talking, it's going to be even harder to bring up any of this. Anyway I hate sounding melodramatic like I'm feeling sorry for myself and looking for attention. And so I'm really not sure what to do because I'm never going to have the strength to make that appointment while all the time my situation gets worse, and I'm scared I will end up wanting to kill myself again like last time, and I promised myself I would never let myself go there again. I'm so alone. Any advice? :(

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we will help you get though this and when you feel better you will be stonger and have more friends then ever before

hold on
elliot

[byee]

It's always darkest before the dawn.

Things aren't as bad as they seem.

there's always tomorrow.

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