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[abc1723]

i hope this is in the right place, im fairly new here so sorry if im wrong.

im not too sure what i want from this, possibly just a hug? i dont know, i just need a bit of a rant really.

i dont want to be here anymore,
its all too much,
i cant cope with things any more, and i dont know how to get rid of all the crap.
i just dont know what to do.
im trying to open up and get help but nothing seems to change.
i just cant carry on.
i want to give up and i dont know who to talk to so i came here, i really hope this is ok.
i want her to go away, she wont leave me alone and i dont get any peace from her all day.
she is driving me over the edge and i dont know how much longer i can try and ignore her.
argh.
im so pathetic
sorry i think ill shut up now

[TigerLily]

Firstly, you're not pathetic. Everybody feels like this from time to time, it's no reflection of your personal strength or anything like that. We're all human, right?

Secondly, although I can see you're having a really tough time right now, things WILL get better, just keep focussing on happier times ahead of you. I'm not saying it makes everything else go away, but it certainly helped me to think like that through my worst days.

Thirdly, :hug:

There are so many people here at vt who will listen, feel free to PM me anytime if you feel like talking, ranting or just anything really, just don't keep this all bottled up to yourself :)

[BuryYourFlame]

for what it's worth, i agree with everything rachel has said, it isn't healthy to keep emotions bottled up...

things will get better, but that might take some time, you just have to keep believing that they will and hold on till they do...

if you ever need to talk, just send me a PM, i will respond asap :)

[abc1723]

thankyou =]
it really means a lot.
i just feel like i have been fighting this for so long and i dont know how much longer i can do it.
i know im the only one who can help myself but im totally stuck and i dont know how i can get through this.
this is ruining my life and i dont see what i have left to live for.
i just wish i could make it all go away. =|

[TigerLily]

thankyou =]
it really means a lot.
i just feel like i have been fighting this for so long and i dont know how much longer i can do it.
i know im the only one who can help myself but im totally stuck and i dont know how i can get through this.
this is ruining my life and i dont see what i have left to live for.
i just wish i could make it all go away. =|

You're quite welcome :)
Just try and keep focussing on the future (I'm sure your future holds soo many things left to live for, even if you can't see that right now), and remember we're always here if you ever need to talk :hug:

[abc1723]

i want to give up.
i dont know how i can carry on.
sorry i just need to get this out.
im fed up i truly am.
sorry i know im just repeating myself but i feel so hopeless and helpless.
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i want out.

[BuryYourFlame]

:( dont give up, things will get better for you...you can get through this...

i know it all seems the same old song and dance...but i truly mean it...

VT is an excellent place to vent your emotions :) it isn't healthy to keep them bottled up...have you got any close friends/family that you could talk to about this too?

[abc1723]

but what if things dont get better and im like this for ever, i dont think i can cope much longer, everything is really overwhelming and im so so scared, i dont feel in control anymore.

i dont really have any friends or family im close to so i cant really talk to them about it.

she is taking over my life, and she wont leave me alone and i cant sleep and she hates it when i eat and she wants me to die and at the moment i cant see anything positive, its so so hard to try nd carry on when im being insulted constantly and being told that nothing is going to change.

i know at the end of the day i have to help myself but im really stuck and i really dont know what is going to help.

sorry ill stop ranting now.

thanks for the reply =]
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