am I depressed?

[beneaththewave]

For the past few months all of my friends have been noticing i'm acting different. Everyday at my locker, apparently I always look i'm about to cry, so my best guy friend always asks "carey, are you okay?" and the other day i told my year long best friend i don't want to be her friend anymore out of no where. i've stopped hanging out with friends and going to church, and i used to go every single thing i could. For the past few nights i've just gone up to my room and cried for hours and cried myself to sleep, four nights in a row. Reasons that could've cause it is maybe that fact i just moved, but that was almost a year ago. about two months ago my choir teacher at my church that I used to go to got in a car wreak, and her and her daughter died, along with one of my friends who was in the other car. My dad is getting drunk every single night, and so is my mom. i don't see my brothers anymore. my other best guy friend, who i used to date, won't talk to me anymore except in band. and a guy i'm in love with told me he never wanted to talk to me anymore and he doesn't want to be in love with me anymore.
I've actually talked to one of my brothers who's bi polar about this. He said just wait about two weeks(of course that was about a month ago and nothings really changed). I've told my mom, and all she said was 'you don't want to be diagnosed as depressed. it will screw your life up" but i think she was drunk that night, but i'm not sure. To be honest, i have tried to cut myself, but i can never do it because im afraid of what will happen. My mom has asked me if i'm going suicidal on her because about a month ago i had passed out and hit my eye on a screw coming out of my bed. when i went to the doctor, the doctor said she wouldn't check me unless i was feeling suicidal, but i wasn't so i didn't get checked. basically i just don't know if i'm depressed or not and i don't know what i should do.

[beneaththewave]

yeah, way to help me >_>

[rangerfan523]

i used to have the same feeling but trust me suicide is not the answer think how you felt when choir theacher died now think how your parents will feel if you died
the point is try and find shit you like to do like sports or gutair drawing whatever helps take your mind of shit

[Underground_Network]

I honestly want to help you. But I don't know what to say. I know what it feels like to be depressed. I've suffered from severe depression. I've attempted suicide numerous times. I still get suicidal thoughts... And overall my head is just fucked up. But I also like to help people, its one of the few things that brings me joy. If you need someone to talk to, please, talk to me. I'm good at making people feel better, no matter how terrible their life is.

I can't exactly think straight right now. The medications I'm on, ain't so easy on the brain... But when I'm lucid I swear I'm helpful... And I think you'll see how helpful I can be. Whether you're actually "depressed" or not doesn't matter, because if you think you're depressed and you're upset and crying, etc., then you're probably depressed in one way or another... Depression has a vague definition, and anyone can suffer from it. Being "diagnosed" with depression is not a bad thing, and a good therapist can do wonders... But you don't necessarily need a therapist to overcome depression... If you want someone to talk to, seriously feel free to PM me...

[byee]

Hi, I'm sorry I missed your initial post. But I'm here now.

I don't know what I'd call *you*, but there's certainly enough going on in your life to qualify as 'depressing'. There's a lot of heavy duty loss, and you seem to have a lot of symptoms normally associated with it.

I think you should find someone to share this with in your life, and let them help you get to someone who can properly assess and begin to treat it.

[beneaththewave]

Well I told my mom, and she doesn't seem to care. She's just like "alright".

[Dreaming Cannibal]

on the same note, suicidal is not an option you should ever consider. One way you could avoid even cutting, is painting or singing or dancing your sadness out. I really don't think is a therapeutical way to overcome depression, but it sometimes helps, it helps me a lot. You could try talking to another doctor, or tell your doctor how so feel. Even though you are not suicidal doesn't mean that is not important to be treated. If em you feel down or w/e pm or add me on msn i'll talk to you. ^_^ (msn: [email protected])

[TODAYisTHEday]

So many things have been happening for the worse in your life. You're are definately going on the road to depression if you ask me. For your mother saying "being diagnosed with depression will ruin your life" that is not true. I've been diagnosed with depression. There are medications to treat the way you feel.

I'm sorry that your mother anf father both drink frequently. My mother is an alchoholic aswell. Times are tough, but you just have to know that all of us here on VT are rooting for you, and I highly suggest you seeing a profesional before anything happens that may get out of hand.

If you ever have any problems continue please, please post we want to help you but you have to tell us whats up.

On my last note PM me if you ever want to talk without out everyone knowing.