i'm pushing him away!!

[sienna.]

well i left the hospital.
and now i am living inbetween houses with my bestfriend ryan, and my boyfriend Coop.
and Coop and i got together when i was in the hospital, and he said he wants to be there for me. to help me recover from my eating disorder!!
but i don't think he knew what he signed up for!!

we argue all the time!!
we argue aboout me not eating, and making myself throw up, about me never sitting still!!
about everything.
he is always making sure i eat and don't throw up.

the other night we both sat down and eat dinner.
and he never once took his eyes off of me.
he made sure i ate all of it.
and that i didn't play with my food, and that i ate it in a time frame of an hour and a half.

and then when i finished i went to run to the bathroom.
but he grabbed me, and stopped me.
we then just layed down on the bed.
and he wouldn't let go of me.
no matter how much i begged him, he wouldn't let me go to the bathroom.
i cried soo much, and he just held me and tried to get me to calm down!!

i wish he wouldn't be so pretective!!
i know it's doing damage to our relationship!!
he probably hates me so much!
i bet you if he knew what he was in for, he would have never gotten with me!!

what should i do??

[MysticalBurrito]

he's trying to hwlp you he cares for you!
Stop pushing him away he is there for you
hes trying to get you better
Listen to him

[Oblivion]

He's trying to help. He wants to be there for you, try to open up and let him help you.
Maybe talk to him and tell him that arguing doesn't help much, and just being there with soft support helps the most.

[AnonKid]

I know what it feels like and it hurts, it hurts a lot when a relationship is spoiled, so don't push him away allow him to help you otherwise you will be alone. :( From what I can tell he really cares about you and loves you. Don't spoil it.

[bill]

he doesnt hate he loves you. and it probably painful for him too. but hes tring to help. i know its a bad ly worded ut think of it this way, if he was going to go stab himself or kill himself or go do drugs would you stop him?

[sienna.]

but i don't know how to stop!!
i can see the pain of his face everytime i throw up or i try to.

and that night when i was crying in his arms when he wouldn't let me go to the bathroom.
when i was struggeling so hard to get free from him.
it was killing him.
and i knew how much i was hurting him,
but i didn't stop!!!

how do i stop pushing him away!