I Don't Want to Go To School Anymore...

[Underground_Network]

I don't want to go to school anymore. I'm tired of my expectations. I'm tired of working hard for classes I could care less about. Learning chemistry isn't going to help me save the world. Learning chemistry isn't going to help me put a smile on the face of the one I care for most. I know enough at this point. And anything else that I need to learn will be learned in time.

I hate the competitive atmosphere of my school. I hate that a 92 is failing. I hate that when I feel upset or when I get depressed my grades take a hit... I hate caring for grades so much. I hate the social atmosphere of my school. I just hate school. I don't want to go to school anymore... I want to either stay home and f-ing rot or run off, either on my own or with the one I care for the most... Though I know both of those ideas are ridiculous.

I just hate my life right now, I hate where I am. I hate my town, I hate all of my missed opportunities, I hate all of my failures. I just don't like anything right now. I want a restart button on life... With all that I've learned now, I realize if I could go back two or three years in time, my life would be so much better... And maybe I'd care more about academics.

Being an A/B student doesn't mean anything to me anymore. I don't care. I don't care about getting into college. I just don't care. I don't know why I don't care, I just don't.

I'm just so distressed right now. I'm so stressed out over nothing and I hate how school adds stress. School is the reason I always get migraines and I always break down. I mean, maybe its also partially my f-ed up my family and my social anxiety (and possibly some other things), but both the social and educational aspects of school drive me insane... Meh...

[Sage]

Sorry to hear that, Adam, but if you ask me, I've found that you don't really go to school to learn all that much. Some coursework my help you in a future job but most of it won't. School is mostly there to prepare you for being proverbially broken down once you become an adult with a career, which will be far more stressful.

Also, I may just add, the further in school you get, the more meaningful your courses become. More options become avaliable and you're no longer trudging through as much shit as you were the previous year. I hope this helps.

[INFERNO]

I'm sure you have some direction of where you want your life to go in. Some courses they may indeed seem useless for what you want, however, as this saying goes, you can only have peace with having war. That is, although the chemistry course may be useless to you, you need to get through it in order to get closer to attaining what you want.

School tends be competitive, however, I found a simple solution that works in university as well as in high school: care about your marks, compete with yourself to beat your previous marks. If someone else gets a 90% and you get a 70%, good for the 90% guy. Competing with others and beating them in one assignment isn't going to get you anywhere. So just compete with yourself, work with others but no need to compete with them.

Grades do tend to fall when one is depressed or angry or anxious, there are various theories to attempt to explain it, however, just relax. A 92% isn't a fail, it shouldn't be considered a fail. If the lowest mark in a class is a 92%, then it doesn't mean that the 92% guy is stupid, it means the class is doing extremely well. So, the only person you should compete with is yourself. If you don't win, oh well, if you do win, great.

I remember back in high school, only at around grade 11-12 was it actually good because I got to choose what courses I want. Everyone has to beat through the courses they don't care one bit about but it will prepare you for the future grades and university or college, and for your career later on. It won't be a simple cakewalk, it will be stressful, so try to find good methods of coping at this level rather than when you're stressed out as a CEO and your irrational decisions may lead to a crumbling business.