nachtspiegel
May 28th, 2009, 03:18 AM
So, I'm meeting up with my ex tomorrow. One that I have been off and on with for almost three years. (It will be three years in July.)
Anyway, I told her just a few months ago that I didn't see us getting back together. For a year and a half, I've had serious feelings for someone else that I have almost no possibility of being with. Sex is one thing, but a relationship with that person is another. Getting back to the situation at hand... she has been on my mind a lot. I honestly do miss her. I was the one that struck up our last conversation. I just spent almost four hours on the phone with her. We made plans several days ago to meet up today after I get off of work and she gets out of school. I feel that I may want to try it again. I'm starting to feel some of those old feelings coming back, and I know that she may be the only person that can take everything I put out and still love me the same the next day.
However... those feelings that I have for that other person haven't gone anywhere and I don't suspect that they're going to, at least in the near future. She also doesn't know that I'm bisexual. She took it hard when I told her that I wasn't a virgin, and she took it harder when she learned that I have been with more than one person. She knows the other person that I have feelings for, but she doesn't know that those feelings exist. I'm not sure if she'd take that harder than if I were to tell her that I have serious feelings for a female. The whole situation is really confusing.
She knows that I have some serious things on my mind, and I made the mistake of telling her that I would tell her what I held back over the phone when we were alone, face to face. I do want to tell her that I have missed her and that I have given "us" another thought, but I don't want to toss that in with "I have serious feelings for someone else that aren't going anywhere."
The last time that our relationship ended, she ended it on a whim and I moved past the idea of getting back together rather quickly. (I was talking to someone else the next day.) I never really did get past what I thought I had with her, though.
So... basically, what I'm asking is... what all do you think I should tell her? Should I tell her that I have given the two of us being back together another thought? Do you think that I should be honest about the unresolved feelings that I have for that other person?
I'll be seeing her in less than ten hours.
I know that I'm posting on short notice.
Usually, I can figure these things out by myself,
But I'm a little thrown back at the moment.
Anyway, I told her just a few months ago that I didn't see us getting back together. For a year and a half, I've had serious feelings for someone else that I have almost no possibility of being with. Sex is one thing, but a relationship with that person is another. Getting back to the situation at hand... she has been on my mind a lot. I honestly do miss her. I was the one that struck up our last conversation. I just spent almost four hours on the phone with her. We made plans several days ago to meet up today after I get off of work and she gets out of school. I feel that I may want to try it again. I'm starting to feel some of those old feelings coming back, and I know that she may be the only person that can take everything I put out and still love me the same the next day.
However... those feelings that I have for that other person haven't gone anywhere and I don't suspect that they're going to, at least in the near future. She also doesn't know that I'm bisexual. She took it hard when I told her that I wasn't a virgin, and she took it harder when she learned that I have been with more than one person. She knows the other person that I have feelings for, but she doesn't know that those feelings exist. I'm not sure if she'd take that harder than if I were to tell her that I have serious feelings for a female. The whole situation is really confusing.
She knows that I have some serious things on my mind, and I made the mistake of telling her that I would tell her what I held back over the phone when we were alone, face to face. I do want to tell her that I have missed her and that I have given "us" another thought, but I don't want to toss that in with "I have serious feelings for someone else that aren't going anywhere."
The last time that our relationship ended, she ended it on a whim and I moved past the idea of getting back together rather quickly. (I was talking to someone else the next day.) I never really did get past what I thought I had with her, though.
So... basically, what I'm asking is... what all do you think I should tell her? Should I tell her that I have given the two of us being back together another thought? Do you think that I should be honest about the unresolved feelings that I have for that other person?
I'll be seeing her in less than ten hours.
I know that I'm posting on short notice.
Usually, I can figure these things out by myself,
But I'm a little thrown back at the moment.