Thinking of starting again..

[Singforabsolution]

I feel like hurting myself again. Felt like it for a little while now. I haven't done it since last year but all the emotion and the way I felt before is coming up again.

I really don't know what to do with myself. Just wish all the horrible thoughts would go away..

[Oblivion]

Try doing something else, and get your mind off it.
You probably know by now that it does nothing but hurt even more. Why start again?

[Singforabsolution]

Sometimes it just feels like there is nothing left to do but that.. I have tried to take my mind off of it.. its just so hard.
I just want to be in control again.
I don't like feeling this way and I have done well not to do it for this amount of time; I've just been stupid by keeping everything bottled up inside.

[Oblivion]

Ask a parent for help.
Or cut a pillow instead.
Do something else.

[Singforabsolution]

Pffft.. the parents have no idea.

[Jman35]

First of all, don't even think about it. The only thing that will beat you in your fight to not cut, is yourself. Tell yourself it won't help, because you know it doesn't. If it did, everyone would do it.

[Singforabsolution]

I understand that.. I dunno. Its just hard to explain; hard to explain my own opinion on it.

Its easier to say I will stop then actually stopping.

Or in this case starting again..

I just need a release from something; I hate feeling the way I feel and I just need something else to forget it all.

[Becky]

First it's probably going to be very hard for you not to think about this but you said all your emotions were bottled up you could tell them to someone on here or write them here even pm me I don't mind. I usually find this helps because all my problems are just there infront of me and get put into persepective as in your head they usually get built it thats what I've realised any way.

Just remember you are strong you've stopped for a year that's a long time.
Good luck

[kt2369]

Its really hard for me too stop cutting.
I have alot of regret later on though... i mean those scars NEVER disapear.. you skin will never be like it used to me.
-its been 11 days im working on it(: