Just need to talk

[Becky]

I've keep all this in for far too long but can't tell anyone I know
I cut myself because no one actually understands what I've been through. I thought I was pregnant a while ago and skipped a period but then had it next month so I felt like I'd lost my baby even though it was never really there I think about it every night and cut myself because I feel so empty now.
I used to just scratch but now I have 5 cuts on my arms and 3 on my legs and they've all bled I don't know what to do I want to stop but I can't
I'm confused :(

[Saphire_Alexi]

I suggest going to a therapist, it has helped my sister a lot. If that doesn't work out, find something to do, and if you like it, it can keep your mind off of self harm. Sorry if I dont have the best advice

[Becky]

I can't tell my mum that I cut myself Idon't know why I just can't it's far to hard =[
I do I work with horses and dance and then I feel fine for a few days then I start cutting again
Thank you for the advice I really think a therapist would help but I think I would get embarassed

[derkderpderp]

heyy, i do the same thing, self harm, i've had a terrible time, and sometimes it just feels like i want to hurt myself because of something i feel responsible for,(most of the time it has nothing to do with me), but i managed to tone down how often i hurt myself, im speaking from the hospital now, due to some pretty bad actions of mine, and i can assure you, that if you carry on like this, u will just feel worse, but i suggest you start drawing and painting, even if you think you're no good at it, it helped me to show my feelings, and how confused i am, then i started talking (finally) to a close friend of mine, she helped me through my little incident, and in truth, talking will help, and its a big step, which you have already conquered, trust me, you're rather brave, but try to keep yourself busy, by painting, or working with horses (as you already do), or make new interests, reading is a good one!
im sorry if my advice is of no help, but good luck and stay positive, take care.

x munkyduck x

[Zazu]

I can't tell my mum that I cut myself Idon't know why I just can't it's far to hard =[
I do I work with horses and dance and then I feel fine for a few days then I start cutting again
Thank you for the advice I really think a therapist would help but I think I would get embarassed

Have you tried talking to your family / friends? You say that no one understands what you've been through, and you've said that it might be too hard to talk to your mum about it, but it might be worth just going for it and talking with your mum. You'd be surprised how supportive a family / friends can be sometimes, even if you don't feel that they would help initially.

In terms of going to see a therapist, they are pretty good people to talk to as well because their job is to help people, so don't worry if you would feel embarassed to go and see a therapist for the first time. It's pretty common that people will feel quite nervous when talking to someone about something for the first time, but a therapist is there to help, they won't judge you if you are apprehensive the first time you see them, they'll just do their best to help.

I hope things get better for you :)

[Becky]

Thank consider the therapist but have no idea where to start! If you have any ideas do share?:D
I have told 2 of my close friends one of them used to cut and I get the feeling she thinks I should be able to stop because she has.
And the other said to either stop or she was telling someone and then said atleast don't tell me when you have because I really don't want to hear which actually hurt me and made me do it that night.
Thank you

[Zazu]

Thank consider the therapist but have no idea where to start! If you have any ideas do share?:D
I have told 2 of my close friends one of them used to cut and I get the feeling she thinks I should be able to stop because she has.
And the other said to either stop or she was telling someone and then said atleast don't tell me when you have because I really don't want to hear which actually hurt me and made me do it that night.
Thank you

If you do want to try out a counsellor, go and see your doctor and they'll be able to help you find the one that's right for you.

It's good to hear that you have been able to talk about what's been going on with a couple of your close friends. I know that it isn't easy to just stop cutting like one of your friends said, but sounds like she's just trying to encourage you to. And it may seem annoying when the other one says to you 'stop or I'm telling someone', but it just shows that they're a decent friend who cares about you; quite a rarity to find people like that these days.

Hope this helped again :)

[Becky]

Ok I'll try going to my doctor I really want to stop this and I don't really think that they know how badly I want to stop because I know it hurts them knowing that i do and that's exactly why don't want to tell anyone else.
So a doctor they don't know me so no one to hurt
Thank you