Know what? Fuck it i want out of this

[ShatteredWings]

I want to get out of this cycle.. I've had enough.. Doesn't matter anymore if i do put back on the weight (even though that idea does scare me), but i don't want to keep being the person who can't go up a fucking flight of stairs anymore.

Grrrr.
Where to start? I've just had enough. i want out of this. i want to be able to eat like a normal person again.

[Truth]

;520429']I want to get out of this cycle.. I've had enough.. Doesn't matter anymore if i do put back on the weight (even though that idea does scare me), but i don't want to keep being the person who can't go up a fucking flight of stairs anymore.

Grrrr.
Where to start? I've just had enough. i want out of this. i want to be able to eat like a normal person again. Yknow, putting on some weight isnt that bad. With weight, i would be considered 'Obese' yet im found attractive and im alot stronger then every guy in my grade. Same with a girl, if your not skinny, you look ALOT more beautiful. By the way, im 230 pounds (Im not all that muscular). Im sure you'll look fine if you gain 30 or so pounds.

Also, just try to eat a little. Then after you can keep some food down, keep trying to eat more, and more, until you eat the amount you want. First, try to keep it down, next stop thinking you'll be oh so fat, cause there's nothin wrong with it even if you will be.

If this dun help, sorry. Never had anorexia myself, so i would not know. Im just saying what i've heard.

[ShatteredWings]

i know.. and i know that the last time i was healthy.. i was more than i weigh now and shorter. sorry for belated responce, its sometimes just hard to think about this. i *can* keep food down.. i just don't LIKE to.. eh that probably doesn't make a lot of sence.
i know the difference between a good and bad idea...its just sometimes it gets warped around in the heads. =|
Is any of that understandable?

shortend: i know. its just really hard to reconize it. there's a difference between knowing and knowing something..

[Truth]

;523466']i know.. and i know that the last time i was healthy.. i was more than i weigh now and shorter. sorry for belated responce, its sometimes just hard to think about this. i *can* keep food down.. i just don't LIKE to.. eh that probably doesn't make a lot of sence.
i know the difference between a good and bad idea...its just sometimes it gets warped around in the heads. =|
Is any of that understandable?

shortend: i know. its just really hard to reconize it. there's a difference between knowing and knowing something.. If you can keep food down, then learn to like it, and like it because you know it will make the people that care about you smile. Don't think anything other then that; also try to eat food you find you like alot, or keep yourself pre - occupied while eating.

[Pirate]

I said this to someone else, but I think it makes sense and so, I hope it helps.
Basically, take it in baby steps. Only concentrate on one meal at a time, and don't start thinking about how you'll do it tomorrow, or what's going to happen in a week, or even how the food is going to affect your weight. Just concentrate on what you're eating. Always try and take a small bite, and see how it tastes. Concentrate on the flavour. If you don't want to eat any more, then don't. Don't force yourself, because you'll just feel guilty either way. If you manage to eat something, be proud of yourself. And add it to the list of things you can eat. If it comes along again, you know you can do it, because you did it the day before, or last week, or whenever it was.

Please let me know how you get on! x