Understanding?

[rainebg]

I am not someone who cuts themselves and I don't think i ever would be. I don;t understand it and really would like to.

To someone who cuts themselves; what do you feel while you cut yourself as far as feelings go? do you feel any physical pain at all? why is it so hard to stop? With that last question i don't mean to sound judgmental because i understand it's difficult to stop i just don't know why.

Thank you for answering my questions. I really just want to understand this better.

[PrincessSarey]

It is difficult to stop because it is an addiction. Like any other, of course it'd be extremely challenging and very hard to even think about stopping, let alone even doing.

Cutting used to provide a relief to me; short term, of course.
I also enjoyed seeing blood...seeing the pain...feeling the pain...it was a rush...and it was extremely intoxicating. When you cut yourself, you release endorphines, hence the "rush" and addiction towards it, it's very unhealthy and very damaging and could end up killing you(like it almost killed me) but to the sufferer, it's their way to cope with whatever it is going on in their life.

Physical pain, for some, is why they do it; they may feel numb, or dead, or "not all there" and harming themselves helps them feel something.

Those who self harm can feel the pain, however, they may be too angry/upset/distressed to even notice it, or as I said, they may focus on it and do it for that reason.

It's a very complex issue, one that should be approached with sensitivity.

[abc1723]

i agree with everything PrincessSarey said, it is indeed an addiction.

the one thing i would like to add is the fact that i sometimes use cutting as a way to punish myself for things i have or havent done.

[Miss Punk]

Cutting for me only hurts at first, and it's a distraction to everything happening around me, and after a while I just stop feeling it, I don't understand why but it's as though I become physically numb to it, and all I can concentrate on is seeing the blood, and for me the more blood I see, the more I cut, which is what leads to it going so far. The reason I need to see blood is because bleeding is like all the pain coming out, so to see it flowing out is so relieving. That's kind of my view of it. Without it, I wouldn't know how to deal with pain. It's become something I just do. What causes me to do it is usually feeling angry, lonely or upset, or hating myself and wanting to hurt myself because I feel I deserve it, and wanting to see the destructive effects it has on me, and I'm not even sure why.

[Truth]

I am not someone who cuts themselves and I don't think i ever would be. I don;t understand it and really would like to.

To someone who cuts themselves; what do you feel while you cut yourself as far as feelings go? do you feel any physical pain at all? why is it so hard to stop? With that last question i don't mean to sound judgmental because i understand it's difficult to stop i just don't know why.

Thank you for answering my questions. I really just want to understand this better. Well, it used to hurt, then i used a razor, the blood, and the adrenaline, along with that stuff it releases from your brain when you do, is why it's so addiction. It stopped hurting, and i only do it when i cant take pain anymore. =x (And i mean point of killing myself, so i cut instead!)

[DecemberRain]

i feel pain..and i get an adrenalin rush. and i just cant stop. I hold my emotions in until i cant anymore and cutting helps me to remain said. i guess thats how i would put it.

[kt2369]

i love the pain. i feel in control. also it shows how i really feel on the inside.