Am I evening myself out?

[DaretoFallup]

Well they say eat, i did.....but then i made myself throw up. I know its not really good, but itsbeen like this the last coupleof days. Isnt technically evening myself out?

[byee]

No, Chelsea, you're not 'evening your self out', you're acting out. So, the 'eating 'part is good, that's Ok, it's the 'throwing up' part that's not so OK. Why are you doing this?

[DaretoFallup]

I hate food, hate what it does to people, so i try to avoid eating...

[Oblivion]

Food doesn't do anything bad to people, unless the person doesn't watch what they eat. Food give humans energy, without it we would all die. If you want to stay away from foods, stay away from Twix, and Snickers, and Pringles, and McDonals. Those are the bad foods that you should be staying away from. Eat healthy foods that help your body, and don't throw them up.

[byee]

Chelsea, I'm not sure why you'd 'hate' food, it's a requirement for the body's functions, afterall. This is news to me, I'm not sure why this is happening for you now.

Typically, people who 'hate' food or otherwise cannot tolerate it have some other issues, other reasons that are upsetting them, so they either lose their appetite or the need to starve onesself becomes confused with those other things. Maybe by talking directly about those things, those other issues and the feelings they;re creating, you'd feel better and wouldn't have to starve yourself.

What's going on?

[DaretoFallup]

Quite a few things.....But this thread isn't for that...

[PrincessSarey]

This thread is for you to talk about what's going on, so go ahead.

But no, you're not evening yourself out.
You'll end up dead.
Want to know the damaging effects of bulimia?

"Bulimia is an eating disorder that is characterized by recurrent binge-and-purge cycles. The periods of binging (consumption of an abnormally large amount of food in a short period of time) alternate with periods of purging (use of different unhealthy methods to get rid of eaten calories). This behavior can end up in serious complications. The consequences of bulimia can be classified as: in systemic consequences, digestive consequences, emotional and psychological consequences, etc.

The systemic consequences of bulimia, especially in the case of laxatives and diuretics overuse are different metabolic and electrolyte imbalances. Bulimia can cause amenorrhea (absence of at least three consecutive periods) and dehydration. The skin and mucous membranes become dry. Xerophthalmia (dry eyes) is frequently seen in bulimics. Some patients can develop metabolic alkalosis, arthralgia, zinc depletion, a low level of triptophan and serotonin, low level of serum calcium and chloride, and other complications.

Electrolyte imbalance, especially hypokaliemia, can lead to serious heart disorders, such as arrhythmias, shock and myocardial infarction. A serious consequence of bulimia in patients who purge by vomiting after binge episodes is dental erosion caused by the gastric acid. Dental erosion in bulimics has specific features and can be differentiated from dental caries and other teeth diseases. Recurring vomiting also leads to chronic sore throat with an unusual swelling of jaws and the formation of characteristic scars and calluses on the back of the hands and knuckles. Burning tongue can be present, too.

One of first signs of bulimia can be a benign, non-inflammatory enlargement of the parotid and other salivary glands (sialadenosis, parotidomegaly). Xerostomia (dry mouth) is common in patients with malnutrition and sometimes can be quite painful. Vitamin and mineral deficiencies can cause lanugo (soft downy hair on face, back and arms), edema (swelling of the tissues because of water accumulation), muscle atrophy and impaired neuromuscular function.

The most common digestive consequences of bulimia are tearing of the esophagus (because of vomiting), esophageal reflux, gastrointestinal bleeding, gastric rupture, constipation (laxative dependence), pancreatitis, and peptic ulcers. A severe consequence of acid reflux and vomiting is cancer of the larynx. Malnutrition and dehydration lead to hypotension (low blood pressure) characterized by dizziness, blurred vision, passing out, and headaches. Anemia is a frequent complication of iron and vitamin B12 (folic acid) deficiencies.

A depletion of calcium and bone protein leads to osteoporosis that may end up in pathological fractures. Emotional and psychological consequences of bulimia are the feeling of shame and guilt, depression, low self-esteem, difficult social relationships, and severe auto-aggression. The most dangerous and tragic consequence of bulimia is suicide caused by depression. Bulimia is a severe eating disorder that has serious complications and represents a great risk for the overall health and sometimes even for the life of the patient."

In short;
"• Teeth decay, erosion of enamel
• Tearing of the esophagus
• Hormonal imbalance
• Electrolyte imbalance
• Cardiovascular damage"

Plenty more damaging consequences of this deadly, serious, complex disorder/disease.

I'm sure you know this though, and if you do, you need help. Of course, we can't force you to get help, so it comes down to you. I've been bulimic for years, as well as anorexic. It is not a pretty path, and it is not one I'd wish on anyone. Get help.

[ShatteredWings]

No, food doesn't work that way. you know it.
:hug:
i'd go into what you're doing, but i think sarah(princess sarey) got it down better than anyone else on here could.

Hun, you NEED to get help with the other issues. If you can settle those , it WILL be easier to work with this.