Florion
May 24th, 2009, 06:48 PM
I've liked this guy for a year and a half. He figured it out a month before I did. At first he seemed to play along with it, would find ways to wait after school for me, playfully grab my hands or lean on me even though he's not a touchy-feely kind of person. I didn't want to ask him out then because I couldn't tell if he was interested or just wanted to take advantage of my feelings to make me study harder for some academic competition we were on the same team for. Eventually (cough, April—we figured it out in November), I got one of my friends to tell him I liked him and to ask if he liked me, and he said no, he sees me as a best friend.
Now we're about a year past that; I didn't ever really manage to stop liking him, but I could function by avoiding extended company with him (it's easier now that we don't have classes together). Another guy seems to like me (shows up everywhere even though we don't have classes together, took me to sit on the rooftop with him one lunch, wants to see me over the summer... or is there any way I could be reading too much into that? I'm more than a bit lost when it comes to social skills). He's a decent person and I'd like to at least get to know him well enough to see if I can like him, but I'm worried that my feelings for the first guy will get in the way. Even now, I can't stop thinking, "He's not as funny, he's not as cute, he's too polite all the time."
I'd like to tie up loose ends by asking the first guy if he likes me (in person, this time =S) and if he'd go out with me. A mutual friend who I'm close with says that he stares at me when I'm not looking, and that everyone who knows us thinks he likes me and is just too shy to admit it, but I'm wary since this does come from a close friend of mine. I figure if I ask him and he says yes, then hooray, now I just need to figure out how to make conversation so our first date isn't made of awkward silence. If he says no, then maybe I'll have some closure and maybe I'll be able to make room for the second guy in my heart. But what if I'm just reopening old awkwardness? We sit at the same lunch table now with a few other friends, and maybe that's the closest I can hope for with him (Somebody randomly batted him on the shoulder and said "Just ask her out already! What's wrong with you?" and his answer was "No"—turn to me—"I'm not going to ask you out.). What if I ask him and it all goes wrong? D: Halp please?
Oh by the way, hello. <3 I'm new.
Now we're about a year past that; I didn't ever really manage to stop liking him, but I could function by avoiding extended company with him (it's easier now that we don't have classes together). Another guy seems to like me (shows up everywhere even though we don't have classes together, took me to sit on the rooftop with him one lunch, wants to see me over the summer... or is there any way I could be reading too much into that? I'm more than a bit lost when it comes to social skills). He's a decent person and I'd like to at least get to know him well enough to see if I can like him, but I'm worried that my feelings for the first guy will get in the way. Even now, I can't stop thinking, "He's not as funny, he's not as cute, he's too polite all the time."
I'd like to tie up loose ends by asking the first guy if he likes me (in person, this time =S) and if he'd go out with me. A mutual friend who I'm close with says that he stares at me when I'm not looking, and that everyone who knows us thinks he likes me and is just too shy to admit it, but I'm wary since this does come from a close friend of mine. I figure if I ask him and he says yes, then hooray, now I just need to figure out how to make conversation so our first date isn't made of awkward silence. If he says no, then maybe I'll have some closure and maybe I'll be able to make room for the second guy in my heart. But what if I'm just reopening old awkwardness? We sit at the same lunch table now with a few other friends, and maybe that's the closest I can hope for with him (Somebody randomly batted him on the shoulder and said "Just ask her out already! What's wrong with you?" and his answer was "No"—turn to me—"I'm not going to ask you out.). What if I ask him and it all goes wrong? D: Halp please?
Oh by the way, hello. <3 I'm new.