It hurts to breath...

[ErykaInspire.]

For the past two-three days i've been bawling my eyes out.. the love of my life doesn't love me back..
I've NEVER been in this much pain before..
Everytime I breath my heart feels like it's getting stabbed by needles..
I randomly find myself holding my breath and trying not to move..

Last night I completely trashed my room trying to find my razors but then I remembered that I threw them out because I promised i'd never do it again..
Now i'm tempted to tear apart my shaving razors..
I just can't deal with it.. I need a way out..
Everything hurts, i'm bruised all over.. I've been punching myself, punching doors, staring at myself in the mirror thinking about how much I hate myself.. and just.. I can't do it...

I need out..
I need him to love me again..
I need someone that i'll never have again in my life..
I need you..
I love you..
I promised..

[EverlostPoet]

holy hell, i need to talk to Josh. >.<

[nick]

Eryka,

sorry you feel like this. Please try to resist the urge for self harm, it wont change anything. I don't know what's gone on, obviously, but I know that another member of this forum is upset about this and doesn't quite understand. Hope you can sort it out.

pm, find me in chat if I can be of any help. pm me if you want my msn, wont post it here.

Nick

[ErykaInspire.]

Thanks, hun.. but I can't self harm anyways.. My razors got thrown out when I promised Josh (Origami) I wouldn't cut anymore..
But I have been punching myself and objects.. and might've broken my ringfinger knuckle >.<
It kills and I just cracked it on accident and it put me in tears.

I'm on yahoo if you have it?
[email protected]

I'm sorry if this all seems pathetic >.<;

I know i've upset Jake and Austin..

[byee]

Ouch! I'm sorry here for your loss, it's just awful when you love someone and it's not recriprocated. But, don't cut, or hurt yourself in any other way. you're in enough pain, you don't need any more.


Try to nurture yourself, be extra nice to you, do those things that make you feel better, pamper yourself. With time, the loss gets easier to tolerate, and you've been taking better care of yourself thru this, too.

[Eclipse]

I just wanna hug you and tell you everything's gonna be fine...I know how it feels not to be loved when you love that person with all your heart and they just walk away. It feels like everything's shattered.Cutting's not gonna help trust me I've been down that road before. Like Sam said, you should take sometime to pamper yourself and think about all the good things about yourself. You're a beautiful person inside and out. Take care.

[ErykaInspire.]

It's hard to pamper yourself when you look and feel like complete shit..
Crying day in and day out is fucking killing me.. My migraine attacks are becoming more frequent, and the urge to hurt myself is just.. to the point of no return..
v.v

[MysticalBurrito]

:( I'm sorry about whats going on

try to take a hot bath or shower it helps my headaches to go away

[ErykaInspire.]

Even if the migraine went away, I ALWAYS have a headache.
It's a fucking curse.. (disease)

[Sapphire]

:hug3:
I'm sorry to hear that you are in such a bad place right now. I'm here to chat whenever you need to. It's horrible to realise that the person you love doesn't love you in return. It can lead you to do and feel all sorts of things. I've been there myself.
Just don't give up on it all. This is a bump in the road that you have to overcome.

Try to do something for yourself. Have a relaxing bath, listen to your favourite music, watch your favourite films. Doesn't matter what you do as long as it's safe and something you enjoy.

[Reality]

Really sorry to hear that Micki, you're pretty cool to me whenever we speak.

Best to do is accept it, and try your hardest to move on. It won't be easy, but stuff like this makes you stronger in the long run.

Don't do anything to hurt yourself, speak with some friends, take your frustration out on a pillow (as frustrating as that sounds) whatever.. just takes your mind off this episode.

I don't know your exact circumstances, but the best thing to do is try to move on with your life still.. you'll find another guy. You're pretty and you're nice. And I ain't just saying that.

And lol I've now seen Sapphire's nice side. :D Joke joke. <3 Don'tkillmeplease.

[CestDan]

Little Micky, I so sorry. But, please don't be so hard with yourself. Remember, every one has some one to love, and please, don't self harm. Let me tell you something, you shouldn't feel like that, breath, as I watch you photo and the way you write, it looks that you are such a nice, pretty and talent person. You don't have to be sad anymore, just let it go, I know, perhaps it's difficult, but, change you mind. You need to go on in this trip that every one has to travel.

You have to be conscious, and reflex, there are a lot of boys in the whole world and, come on, you are so beautiful, so you won't have any problem to find some one who will love you forever and will value and see how much important person you are.

I hope you would be better and believe me, you don't have to worry anymore. Some one in somewhere is thinking about you all the time.

Be happy.