i've been told to come here for help, oww, please help!!

[derkderpderp]

heyy, its munky, er, apparently im a physco b/c i hurt myself, on a number of occasions ive cut my arms and my chest, but im not! im not a physco! and when people say all these things, i just, go crazy!!! argh! i dont know what to do, i don't know how to deal with these chavs who just don't know anything about me!! people dont understand me and my feelings, they dont know what its like to lose their mothers and their sisters, all to a horrible monster of a father! they don't understand anything, so how on earth can they judege me and my feelings!

argh

somebody help, i don't know how to deal with this, as far as i know, im worthless! help!!:mad:

[Shattered Soul]

Hey, Munky. You are not worthless, everybody on this planet has the potential to do great and wonderful things, it's just a matter of using this potential :) You aren't a psycho, you're just going through or have a lot of emotional pain.

It is horrible when people believe they know why somebody self harms, there are a lot of mean people out there, my own mother repeatedly tells me not to be proud of doing it or quitting despite explaining otherwise. Don't listen to these people. The only opinions that matter come from those you care about. Chavs are just stupid.

Have you spoken to a counsellor about your mother, sisters and father? It might help you with the emotional trauma of losing your mother and sisters and deal with the anger of what your father did. I'm not going to say I understand the pain that this has brought you, because I've never had to go through that but if you ever need to talk, you can PM me anytime.

xxCathyxx

[derkderpderp]

thanks, but like, i find it so so hard to just cope, and the fact that im 15 means that im going through what most 15 year olds are going through aswell; GCSE's, Social changes, worrying about education etc

and i just hate how everybody just judges so hastily, and i don't know why they do it, i dont know how they can judge me! i keep to myself, and i deliberately exlude myself from these people in order to save them the trouble of insulting me, and the fact that im asian, and that im into black metal doesn't help, im beaten up and seemingly scolded just for my music tastes!therefore i have to hide it, just liike how i hide everything else in my stupid life. and with the counsellor thing, well, i don't really feel up to it, because ive spoken to counsellors before, and they all say the same thing, they all basically tell me to get over it, and they dont understand, thats why i posted a thread on this forum, in the hope that someone would be feeling what i am, oww, i hate this, i just wanna die!

but hey, thanks for replying and giving me advice, im sorta debating on the whole counsellor thing, thank you

byee

=(

[Becky]

I'm 15 and cut myself
I now how it feels to be stressed out about all your exams and everything aswell but. No one has ever judged me becasue I don't tell anyone so I can't fully understand this but it can't be nice.
My advice is to ignore these people becasue of exactly the reasons you said they don't understand what you're going through so they have no right to judge you so there opinion shouldn't count if they're being nasty.

[Zazu]

It does sound like you're having to go through quite a lot atm, I remeber how stressful the period was coming up to / during GCSEs, but you shoudln't have to put up with what these people are doing to you, and you shouldn't feel that you are the one who has to change to please them. Have you tried talking to the police about what is going on? If people are beating you up then that can be classed as assult, and if they are verbally abusing you, that is verbal assult; both of these things are illegal and shouldn't happen.

With regards to councelors, I would have thought that the best way to find a councelor would be to go to your GP and ask them who they would reccomend for you. They normally know about any local support groups / concelors and they're normally pretty good with matching you up to the right service. You've got to make sure though that if you do go and see a concelor that you remeber to keep an open mind to any suggestions that they make to you, and always remember, they're there to help, not to hinder.

Also, I seemed to gather from your first post that you don't get on too well with your Dad; if you feel this is really bothering you then might be worth having a chat with your doctor about that too.

I hope this helps in some way dude :)

[derkderpderp]

thanks guys, ur really helpful, but at the end of the day, im not really accepted in my community- b/c im asian, and its seen as wrong. i don't tell anynody about my problems apart from my really close friends, and im never really open about my self harming.

and with my father, well, i was really hurt by what he did, and now i don't know why but i blamed myself for what he did, i could have stopped it, i was there when he did it, but i didnt do anything. life really really sucks.

My gp referred me to a physchologist, it didn't work out, i kept getting angry and having breakdowns, so they put me on anti-depressants, they just made me worse, so i stopped, then i began self harming, and i kept blaming myself for what happened. and now, im just lost, ive got tonnes of pressure on me from my damn family (they want me to get at least 5 a*s and 3 a's, otherwise they r going to beat me like crazy again), ive got my own problems aswell, and nobody understands, yet they still judge me, they still criticise me for wanting to be left alone! i hate it, i just dont know how to cope

thank you for the advice Chequ3r and you Becky, you've been really helpful. thank you

[raz0r]

Your not worthless, Your not a physco.

It would just be normal to be in your situation, i would be like that aswell, You just have to ignore the chavs, try and stay as far away from them.
Just do NOT say anything to them when thier in large groups, the outcome could become messy.

[derkderpderp]

Yeah i know,i try my best to stay away from them,its them who confront me in their gangs and beat me up.but dude,thank you for the advice.