why do we bother?

[cool person]

So, I haven't been on for a while, things have been going pretty well. My mom found one of my notes where I talked about suicide etc, but I managed to convince her it was nothing.
But today, my best friend told me it was over. That she felt trapped in our friendship...I just don't see the point of going on right now. Will I ever be popular? fuck, I don't care about that...will i ever not be alone? I'm seriously starting to doubt that it is possible for me to keep friends, I am awsome at making friends, I just suck at keeping them around.

[Project Delta]

Well it is better to have had and lost than to not have had at all right?
I have one friend who yeah has stuck by me, but isnt the best for defending me etc. but still, i would like more friends.
Cool Person, its not the end, friends are expendable and you WILL make a new friend to replace the other