They said they were there for me

[jessbearrx]

I dont know if this is the right place to post this, so sorry if it's not.

I have two best friends, or rather had two best friends. I told them everything about how I was feeling: my suicidal thoughts, my self-harming, my feeling unloved and empty. They both said they'd never leave me and they'd help me through this. But a few days ago they both decided to leave me because I "make their lives miserable". It's funny though because they both say they want me to get better - they told a teacher about my self-harming and now pretty much everyone knows when I never wanted them to, I'm not ready to talk about it. Yet, by leaving me, they're making everything worse. I guess they don't know how much they mean to me, but they should. And I just need help on how to survive without them/get them back and tell them what they mean to me.

[chelsay13]

I feel the same.
Tell them exactly what you told us.
how they mean so much to you.

[Viral Death]

Things happen like this, you should stop cutting or self harm and just be nice and dont talk to people you trust about these things. Make some friends and get a hobby I recovered from cutting and it was hard but I am doing good and I am making friends. If you need a friend you can drop me a PM.

[jessbearrx]

I have but they won't talk to me or acknowledge anything I have to say.

[STAYING_STRONG4HIM]

I know how your feeling right now hun, to a certain extent... I am in the middle of something like this too...All of my friends have left me basically..my best friend is mad at me...I feel completely and utterly alone right now....my friends said they would never leave me...they said that they would always be there for me...that they would support me and love me...but you know what they all dropped me...they don't care...they won't even talk to me anymore...I'm not talking about 1 or 2 friends here I am talking about lik5-10 friends...good friends...really close friends...and they ALL dropped me....they just up and left. my best friend is ready to give up on me...she cares....but it's hard for her to see me like this.

[jessbearrx]

:// i'm sorry. we're kind of in the same boat, aren't we?
And that last bit about your best friend, I'm guessing that's what my friends feel like, but it doesnt feel like it.
If you need to talk, I'm here :)

[STAYING_STRONG4HIM]

One of my good friends told me that she was thinking about suicide today....I can't handle this anymore...this is exactly why I cut...I get to the point where I can't take it anymore.

[jessbearrx]

My friends told me that they're better off without me.
Thats why I cut
As well as many other reasons.

[STAYING_STRONG4HIM]

Well I have a million reasons to cut but not very many to not cut right now...
I can't fight it anymore...
I'm giving in...
God Help me!

[jessbearrx]

:(
I'm here if you need me.
I feel like that though: there's no reason in my life right now why I shouldn't be cutting.
It's stupid, it's crazy.

[STAYING_STRONG4HIM]

I'm giving in

[Jman35]

I dont know if this is the right place to post this, so sorry if it's not.

I have two best friends, or rather had two best friends. I told them everything about how I was feeling: my suicidal thoughts, my self-harming, my feeling unloved and empty. They both said they'd never leave me and they'd help me through this. But a few days ago they both decided to leave me because I "make their lives miserable". It's funny though because they both say they want me to get better - they told a teacher about my self-harming and now pretty much everyone knows when I never wanted them to, I'm not ready to talk about it. Yet, by leaving me, they're making everything worse. I guess they don't know how much they mean to me, but they should. And I just need help on how to survive without them/get them back and tell them what they mean to me.

First of all, it's never cool to bail on a friend when times get a little bit rough, or make their problems a public announcement, but you have to understand 2 things :

1.) By telling the teacher, they were probably trying to get help for you, or maybe they thought the teacher could even help.

2.) Maybe some of the things you do to them or around them do make them unhappy. For example (NOT SAYING YOU DO PLEASE READ), maybe when you are around them, instead of treating them like friends, you treat them like your counselors. You can expect them to help you, but not make their life revolve around you.

Finally, I think everyone would agree, you need some kind of higher help, maybe a shrink, or even your parents. You also need to find an alternative to cutting whenever you get depressed, try talking to someone or even just writing your thoughts down, then reading them later.

[jessbearrx]

They said that they don't want anything to do with me. I'm just about to give up on them, which yes will be giving up on basically my life seeing as they mean so much, but people say that I only want them back because otherwise I'd be on my own. And that's not true.

I have tried stopping, and I am going to stop. I will. I will. I will. I don't know how, but I will. I've promised myself.

[STAYING_STRONG4HIM]

hun pm me ok...we can stop together and I have been having very similar problems to you...so lets just talk ok?