Confusion...

[renie]

I feel depressed.
Next week my school is having a concert and I have to take part in it ... we have been rehearsing for it for a few months( although I have to learn a dance in a day, which is impossible and I'll look like an idiot on stage), but I still feel insecure. All of the other girls are professional dancers and I'm an amateur, so you can imagine what a difference there is between us. I have difficulty in learning the steps, probably I'm not enough flexible, but I surely want to do sth creative. As I see the others' gracious movements and ideas, I start to feel bad... The thought that I'm going to look like a fool in front of the whole school makes me shiver, not only that, our outfits will be .. well, kinda like PCD's and my body is .... more than awful.
Yes, some people may not consider this a problem at all, but I think it's deeper than it looks like. I am very shy, with low self-confidence, at school I cannot show myself at fullest. Like most introverts, my hobby is daydreaming. But in all my dreams there is a constant wish to be famous, respected and artistic. It's hard for me to watch someone doing better than me, yet I'm not one that tries too hard. The fact that no guy likes me is another thing that makes me feel worthless and useless. I feel like a piece of trash because I seem to have nothing ( as a quality) to be liked.
Deep inside, I feel I'm a good person, because I'm quite empathic, I have good grades, pass exams in English( it's not my native language), try to be nice to people and not to offend anyone because I can imagine how they would feel ... I even want to become a psychologist one day because of my deep interest in human's thoughts, actions and so on. But could a person who lives in a terrible confusion and who cannot help herself, help the others?
I don't know...
How can I get over my confusion and build more confidence?:what:

P.S . There is another problem that I forgot to mention. I'm constantly smiling when someone watches me or talks to me. The problem is that there are situations in which the last thing you are supposed to do is to smile ... e.g. when talking about funerals, deaths, illnesses and so on... And I don't do it because I find the topics funny... It's probably because of my embarrassment and, again, low self-confidence ... What can I do?

[NightFighter]

I feel depressed.
I even want to become a psychologist one day because of my deep interest in human's thoughts, actions and so on. But could a person who lives in a terrible confusion and who cannot help herself, help the others?


Omg, im having the same problem! Im thinking about becoming a therapist or psychologist but i think i need one! I think that it might be beneficial though in some ways. I think that it may make you a better psychologist as you understand the persons feelings as you have gone through them yourself. People who come to you may feel more comfortable talking to you because of that.


P.S . There is another problem that I forgot to mention. I'm constantly smiling when someone watches me or talks to me. The problem is that there are situations in which the last thing you are supposed to do is to smile ... e.g. when talking about funerals, deaths, illnesses and so on... And I don't do it because I find the topics funny... It's probably because of my embarrassment and, again, low self-confidence ... What can I do?

Again, i have the same problem! When my nana told me her house had been destroyed due to a burst water pipe i could not get the grin off my face! I was feeling terrible for her, i really was, but she was upset and i didnt know what to say. Another time is when someones pet died - i laughed. I know it wasnt funny, it was a terrible thing to happen. People must think im heartless and crazy. I guess im just trying to tell you that your not alone having this reaction.
Next time when someone talks about sad topics, what i do, is i count in my head and wait for them to say all they have to say. Then hopefullychange the topic. The counting will distract you while they are busy talking. I hope it helps for you.


Im sorry i cant offer advice for your performance. Im very shy too :(
I hope it goes well for you! :)
Good Luck!

[byee]

Well, if your wish is to be famous and respected, here's your chance! Surely you were chosen for this part (with professional dancer's, no less) b/c someone with experience in these matters obviously felt you have talent! At least enough to perform with pro's. The fact that you cannot see yourself that way doesn't detract from what might be there.

It's a darn skippy good thing that most people don't expereince themselves as others do, otherwise, we'd never have the courage to get out of bed in the morning. Just practice and do your best, and realize that *whatever* you're seeing in yourself isn't necessarily the way others are seeing you.

Bravo!