tomm
May 15th, 2009, 09:15 AM
Well, i'm brazillian, discovered this site yesterday, while masturbating... --'
I'm 17, and so, dunno if there's some kind of problem with posting here, i don't see myself as a puberty guy anymore. :X
At first, for you to understand and make sure you have all the details, i'll tell my (sexual) life story. Sorry for any english gramatical error, but i'm not used to use it in a text like this. xD
Well, my first sexual experience was in the elementary school, with a boy. I was like... 5~6 years old. It was nothing like oral or anal sex, and many would say it was completely innocent. We used to kiss (in the face and "like married people", like we used to say) and touch penis with penis (yeah, it was already hard. I dunno if it's normal at that ange. But, nevermind...). After i left elementary school, i never saw him again.
I dunno if because i had a absent father (he was always working, besides, he's a wonderfull person), i was always in the middle of womans. I grew very... GAY. I was very effeminated.
When i was 9~10 years old, i started to like a girl. I think it's normal.
My uncle (he's 4 years older than me, and was in the middle of puderty that time) was the first person i told i liked her, and he said he would help me teaching me things, like masturbating, but sometimes, we gone to the "wrong" side, almost doing blowjobs in each other. It never happened, though. I think that was my second sexual experience.
In the end of that year, we moved to another town, i was 10~11, in the 5th grade. in that time, i discovered how to masturbate, all by myself, i have never seen any porn. And, i started to do stuff with my brother. He's 3 years younger than me. We frequently masturbated in the same room, and once i did a blowjob in him. In the same year, i touched my friends penis, but it was only kidding.
When i got back from my family's town at age 11~12, i kinda masturbated every day, several times a day (i used to spend half of an hour in bath xD). In that year, only for once, i masturbated in the room with my uncle. Nothing i should worry, right? Sometimes my parents cought me on bath, but they never sayd to me it was wrong.
In the next year, at age 12~13, i tryed to do sexual stuff mith my brother, but that time, my dad saw us, and told my mother, we had a big fight, and i never done anything with him again.
In the same year, i went to my friends house, with another guy of the school, to make a homework togheter. We was looking for "antique greece'', and porn poped up, in google images, of a woman in a greek columm. We spent the rest of the afternoon seeing porn, but not masturbating.
In the other day, he said he found his dad's porn DVD, and invited me and the other guy to come over. I was alone with him, the other guy had not arrived yet, and we started to watch. Suddendly, he said he "could not take much longer", and masturbated in front of me. I did the same, and after the other guy arrived, i done it several times in the bathroom.
And the next years, i don't remember anything besides masturbation, sometimes whitout reason, just because i wanted.
But, then, at age 15, i went to another school, where there was swimming class, and, obviously, bath. I started to frequently watch my friends penises while they where naked changing, and masturbated in home thinking about that.
Then, i started to feel weird. I didn't saw any fun in girl~on~girl action anymore, and i noted i was paying more atention in the penis than in the vagina while seeing porn. I was freaking viciated in hentai mangas.
In the comming year, age 16, i discovered "shotacon", a tipe of hentai, that involves boys of age 9~14, only with boys. But i found it disgusting, and felt unconfortable with what i done after getting the orgasm. Besides, i kept sawing it.
Loonkig for more hentai, i discovered "straight shotacon", another tipe of hentai, that involves boys from age 9~14 and girls/womans, from ages older than 9. I was kinda viciated in that, but, again, i noted i was paying more atention in the penis than in the vagina or boobs.
I want to make clear one thing: I was virgin, but i had some girls until then, some i liked, some i kissed, but never had any sexual experience with girls. I'm not affeminated like before, i try to control myself all the time.
In the next year, age 17, the thing that made me post here happened. I started to masturbate while seeing gay porn. But not only gay... Gay porn with underage and teenagers. Some site only use models with childish face, but after you enter, you see they're already grow up, but some don't. They present the guy with 18+, but you can actually see they're childs. I hate myself after masturbating, frequently, after getting in the orgasm, i turn off the pc. It's beem 6 months since i started seeing and searching that kind of porn, and i'm kinda worried of becoming a weirdo or pervert in the future. I realized that, if instead of gay, if they had porn with boys and girls (underage...) i would accept more than gay porn.
I don't now what to think anymore. I like seeing then, but i'm always looking for straight porn with underage boys (probably because i'm virgin and wanted to do sex long time ago?).
OBS: When i masturbate, i frequently think in the afternoon i saw my friend masturbating, i start imagine doing sex with him. I can't say i don't enjoy it, and it's the same if i imagine doing sex with a girl.
I think i told you everything. I never searched for professional help, but i'm desparated with the possibility of becoming... Dunno, a pedo? A weirdo?
I dunno what i am, if i'm straight or bi. I don't imagine myself having anal sex with guys, but i always imagine me doing blowjobs, so i don't think i'm gay. I like a girl (not corresponded), so i think i'm still at least "half" straight.
Please, i never talked about this with anyone, because of the shame, i think.
I hope you can help me.
I realized i'm starting to enjoy watching this pedo stuff, but i do n't want to like it. Now that i'm saygin this to someone, i feel really scared.
Sorry for the long text, but i wanted to say all at once. If you have any questions, i'll come again tonight, to see if somebody answered.
*Please avoid double-posting, thanks :)*
I'm 17, and so, dunno if there's some kind of problem with posting here, i don't see myself as a puberty guy anymore. :X
At first, for you to understand and make sure you have all the details, i'll tell my (sexual) life story. Sorry for any english gramatical error, but i'm not used to use it in a text like this. xD
Well, my first sexual experience was in the elementary school, with a boy. I was like... 5~6 years old. It was nothing like oral or anal sex, and many would say it was completely innocent. We used to kiss (in the face and "like married people", like we used to say) and touch penis with penis (yeah, it was already hard. I dunno if it's normal at that ange. But, nevermind...). After i left elementary school, i never saw him again.
I dunno if because i had a absent father (he was always working, besides, he's a wonderfull person), i was always in the middle of womans. I grew very... GAY. I was very effeminated.
When i was 9~10 years old, i started to like a girl. I think it's normal.
My uncle (he's 4 years older than me, and was in the middle of puderty that time) was the first person i told i liked her, and he said he would help me teaching me things, like masturbating, but sometimes, we gone to the "wrong" side, almost doing blowjobs in each other. It never happened, though. I think that was my second sexual experience.
In the end of that year, we moved to another town, i was 10~11, in the 5th grade. in that time, i discovered how to masturbate, all by myself, i have never seen any porn. And, i started to do stuff with my brother. He's 3 years younger than me. We frequently masturbated in the same room, and once i did a blowjob in him. In the same year, i touched my friends penis, but it was only kidding.
When i got back from my family's town at age 11~12, i kinda masturbated every day, several times a day (i used to spend half of an hour in bath xD). In that year, only for once, i masturbated in the room with my uncle. Nothing i should worry, right? Sometimes my parents cought me on bath, but they never sayd to me it was wrong.
In the next year, at age 12~13, i tryed to do sexual stuff mith my brother, but that time, my dad saw us, and told my mother, we had a big fight, and i never done anything with him again.
In the same year, i went to my friends house, with another guy of the school, to make a homework togheter. We was looking for "antique greece'', and porn poped up, in google images, of a woman in a greek columm. We spent the rest of the afternoon seeing porn, but not masturbating.
In the other day, he said he found his dad's porn DVD, and invited me and the other guy to come over. I was alone with him, the other guy had not arrived yet, and we started to watch. Suddendly, he said he "could not take much longer", and masturbated in front of me. I did the same, and after the other guy arrived, i done it several times in the bathroom.
And the next years, i don't remember anything besides masturbation, sometimes whitout reason, just because i wanted.
But, then, at age 15, i went to another school, where there was swimming class, and, obviously, bath. I started to frequently watch my friends penises while they where naked changing, and masturbated in home thinking about that.
Then, i started to feel weird. I didn't saw any fun in girl~on~girl action anymore, and i noted i was paying more atention in the penis than in the vagina while seeing porn. I was freaking viciated in hentai mangas.
In the comming year, age 16, i discovered "shotacon", a tipe of hentai, that involves boys of age 9~14, only with boys. But i found it disgusting, and felt unconfortable with what i done after getting the orgasm. Besides, i kept sawing it.
Loonkig for more hentai, i discovered "straight shotacon", another tipe of hentai, that involves boys from age 9~14 and girls/womans, from ages older than 9. I was kinda viciated in that, but, again, i noted i was paying more atention in the penis than in the vagina or boobs.
I want to make clear one thing: I was virgin, but i had some girls until then, some i liked, some i kissed, but never had any sexual experience with girls. I'm not affeminated like before, i try to control myself all the time.
In the next year, age 17, the thing that made me post here happened. I started to masturbate while seeing gay porn. But not only gay... Gay porn with underage and teenagers. Some site only use models with childish face, but after you enter, you see they're already grow up, but some don't. They present the guy with 18+, but you can actually see they're childs. I hate myself after masturbating, frequently, after getting in the orgasm, i turn off the pc. It's beem 6 months since i started seeing and searching that kind of porn, and i'm kinda worried of becoming a weirdo or pervert in the future. I realized that, if instead of gay, if they had porn with boys and girls (underage...) i would accept more than gay porn.
I don't now what to think anymore. I like seeing then, but i'm always looking for straight porn with underage boys (probably because i'm virgin and wanted to do sex long time ago?).
OBS: When i masturbate, i frequently think in the afternoon i saw my friend masturbating, i start imagine doing sex with him. I can't say i don't enjoy it, and it's the same if i imagine doing sex with a girl.
I think i told you everything. I never searched for professional help, but i'm desparated with the possibility of becoming... Dunno, a pedo? A weirdo?
I dunno what i am, if i'm straight or bi. I don't imagine myself having anal sex with guys, but i always imagine me doing blowjobs, so i don't think i'm gay. I like a girl (not corresponded), so i think i'm still at least "half" straight.
Please, i never talked about this with anyone, because of the shame, i think.
I hope you can help me.
I realized i'm starting to enjoy watching this pedo stuff, but i do n't want to like it. Now that i'm saygin this to someone, i feel really scared.
Sorry for the long text, but i wanted to say all at once. If you have any questions, i'll come again tonight, to see if somebody answered.
*Please avoid double-posting, thanks :)*