Help plz!

[sam i am]

Ok Im in the hospital and what not and i have cancer.I'm on my last stage and then Im going to have a bone morrow transplant( my brother is a match thank god). Well let me get straight to the point Im suppose to go to high school in sep but the bone morrow transplant takes time to recover and my mom said i will have home school for the first semester(which i do not want i wanna be with other kids my age). I used to cut my self but Im worried i will start doing it again. I really hate Ok correct that i really dislike my mother for making a decision like that. I'm really starting to get depressed again. In the beginning i was not depress but later on i starting to become depress because i didn't like how i look and that Im bisexual. But i got over that and i like the way i look and that Im bisexual. The thing is Im getting super depress now because i try to put a smile for the show, but i can't do it anymore. I wanna go to high school and be around other kids and it's not fair. I think i might kill myself and i can't take it no more I'm tired of every thing i don't wanna live.:(

[byee]

Sam, I'm going to talk with you like a fellow Sam and a fellow New Yorker here, pardon me for taking those liberties.

I understand your concerns about being isolated for a semester, but let's have a reality check here: You have cancer.

The goal is for your complete recovery, and in order for that to happen, you might need to re prioritize things in your life, at least temporarily. So, that means staying at home for the first semester, not cutting yourself, and keeping a positive outlook in general. All those decisions are determined by sound medical advice designed to facilitate your rcomplete ecovery, it doesn't sound like your mom is unilaterally making a choice and imposing it on you based on her own selfish needs, it's based on improving the chances of success and complete remission of the cancer.

Change your perspective, refocus on the real issue here: Your complete recovery. Everything else is really secondary, temporary, and quite tolerable.

Sam