Help Please!

[sam i am]

Ok Im in the hospital and what not and i have cancer.I'm on my last stage and then Im going to have a bone morrow transplant( my brother is a match thank god). Well let me get straight to the point Im suppose to go to high school in sep but the bone morrow transplant takes time to recover and my mom said i will have home school for the first semester(which i do not want i wanna be with other kids my age). I used to cut my self but Im worried i will start doing it again. I really hate Ok correct that i really dislike my mother for making a decision like that. I'm really starting to get depressed again. In the beginning i was not depress but later on i starting to become depress because i didn't like how i look and that Im bisexual. But i got over that and i like the way i look and that Im bisexual. The thing is Im getting super depress now because i try to put a smile for the show, but i can't do it anymore. I wanna go to high school and be around other kids and it's not fair. I think i might kill myself and i can't take it no more I'm tired of every thing i don't wanna live.:(

[DrkZ90]

sorry to hear you have to go through that when so young...

I'd say that you MUST wait for your recovery after the surgery... you will have constant medical checks to see how you are doing, and it may take shorter than expected... in the meanwhile, see home schooling as this: if you don't take that time of recovery to study, you will have to be in a lower year once you go to school, and you wouldn't be with the kids your age... see it as an advantage...

last but not least, stay strong, you can get through this :yes:

[STAYING_STRONG4HIM]

Hey Please hang in there Sam....
You helped me make it through the night the other night....Think positive...I know that's hard...but attitude really is everything...I know going through cancer is hard...it's hard to watch someone go through it. You are so strong though and I have faith that you will get through this. You can do it Sam. I'm praying for you. Just hang in there. I know homeschooling doesn't sound like a good thing right now but maybe you could become more involved in a club...for homeschooled or something...there are other options you know...I'm always here if you wanna talk, just PM me...
STAY STRONG my brother! You can beat this!

[inlove]

if you do feel the need to cut yourself.. u HAVE to find a less dangerous stimulus.. i did.. its difficult but when i feel the need i play guitar and work the stress away.. try to do things that make u happy/

[xGreenling]

Sam - you've helped me out, too... I owe you this at the very least.

What you're going through is so much more than most people will ever have to experience... and the fortitude you've shown making it even this far is truly admirable. You have the strength and the good character to make it through this. You can do it!

[diamond jetstream]

hey i dont really know you but i read your story and i think you should look at all the things that made you stay strong and think about the people that you love and try to think of a task to keep your mind off things eg a game or a online class about carving or art and express your feelings in other ways man and most of all stay strong and pull through it. im backing you

[sam i am]

AW! omg im like crying ok i should stop! because that's like being gay lmao.. well i'll try to keep my head up but it's not easy at all

[STAYING_STRONG4HIM]

Here is my suggestion....one that has seemed to work for me...why don't you do something you love doing for 30 minutes a day....everyday....for me that is drawing or writing....just a suggestion...

[sam i am]

i write poems and draw but i just don't have idk lately im just depress and my ex is a fucking bastard and it's not helping idk i need something to keep my head up ugh

[STAYING_STRONG4HIM]

I know what you mean...drawing and writing weren't working for me too...until someone told me I had to do it...So I am telling you that YOU HAVE to do something that you love to do for 30 minutes...YOU NEED YOU TIME.

[Truth]

i write poems and draw but i just don't have idk lately im just depress and my ex is a fucking bastard and it's not helping idk i need something to keep my head up ugh Well, i posted a list of alternatives to cutting in the cutting/selfharm forum. So if you dont wanna draw and that, try to do some stuff on the list.