Sick of technicalities but still can't say it

[BeautifulSilence]

Okay. So. Before I had "I'm technically straight b/c everyone is attracted to the same sex at least once blah blah blah." AND accepted the "I'm technically bisexual b/c I'm in love with a girl. [As well as constant attraction to boys]"

But. It's not just that anymore. I'm definitely becoming more attracted to more girls... I'm defintiely bisexual. No technicalities. I just can't bring myself to say it in "real" life. Like, if someone asks, I'll say "Have you heard me say that?" or something that's purposely misleading. I'll never give a straight answer . Or I'll hide behind "Well, technically..."

I don't know... I really don't have a problem with being bisexual, or being anything really. It's just. I [I]can't admit it, personally, to anyone.

I'm not sure what I'm asking... This may just be getting it off my chest or whatever but. GRR. I want to be able to say "I AM bisexual." without joking about it or trying to act as if it's not true. The odd thing is that I can say I'm anthrosexual, omnisexual, pansexual, pomosexual and everything else that's used a lot less (but let's face it, is basically the same thing).

I really don't know what it is, but I feel like I'm lying to myself >.<

[Kaleidoscope Eyes]

It's ok to have trouble saying that sort of thing out loud, especially to your peers. Even if you know the person won't judge you negatively for it, it's still a big admission and it can make you feel vulnerable to put yourself out there like that.

Dancing around the subject with people isn't the same as lying to yourself. YOU know who you are, but you get to choose who else knows. I'm not saying to outright lie about it to the world, but if you'd rather avoid the subject that's perfectly ok. You'll be able to admit it to someone eventually, and after that it'll be easier to say it to other people too. There's no rush; you can let people into that part of your life when you're ready. :)

[ErykaInspire.]

I'm definitely becoming more attracted to more girls... I'm defintiely bisexual. No technicalities.

Hun, you admited it.
You admited it to the world, Just now. Everyone on VT. and the guests that happen upon this thread.
You shouldn't feel like you CAN'T admit who you ARE. People worth your while will never lose their love for you. I'm sure many understand.
Try to look in the mirror and say in your mind "I'm bisexual" a few times. Then say it outloud "I AM bisexual."
I hope that helps.
I'm here if you need someone to talk to, Just send me a PM.

[ShatteredWings]

You just figured this one out laura?

Eh, i know what you're talking about.
But..you did just admit it to everone on VT, and the whole fucking world wide web. :P

[i never give a straight answer either.. i'll just ask 'is it your business?']

[Ladysman]

Like u say its not a bad thing im bi and i came out last week to my friends u needbto get ur best friend and tell them comming out makes u feel better about yourself well i hope it turns out ok PM me if you need any advice

[chris__robin]

Ahhh i had this problem when i was 14, i knew i was gay but theres a difference between typing it on the internet and saying it out loud to another person.

The time i started accepting myself was when i was lying in bed one night, really upset and crying about the whole thing. I was thinking about all the negatives but i knew i could never change the way i was. so i just said out loud "i'm gay" .... just over and over. It was a big deal for me because after that night i finally started to accept myself.

well thats my sob story, but im trying to say that eventually you will accept it and be able to admit it to yourself and people around you because its just a part of who you are, and denying it doesnt make it go away.