My mind is all muddled

[Shattered Soul]

I don't know what's wrong with me. I feel completely miserable all the time, i've tried not to feel sad and lift my mood but I can't and I hate it and I hate myself for not being able to be happy. It's getting in the way of college, I've starting skipping lessons because I'm really not in the mood for that. The other night, I cried for about 3 hrs, finally cried myself to sleep at 3am. The next day, I almost tried to kill myself.
My friends apparently walk on eggshells when around me because of my apparent mood swings. I don't think they exist, personally, but my friends, family, teachers and co-workers say they do.
There are issues I need to sort out but I can't sort them out yet, because I need to make sure everyone else is happy. Have to save the world, what's the point of living in it if everybody's sad.
bla bla bla. Hmm...candyfloss would make everyone happy! Anyone know how to make it without buying it? Need a giant batch capable of feeding the world...
xxCathyxx

[Shattered Soul]

Or a giant rubber ducky, those things are so funny everyone will laugh :D And people wont be able to eat it coz it's made of rubber which means it'll be there all the time. People could eat rubber but it'll probably make them sick.

[Zazu]

Sorry to hear that you feel miserable, and sorry to hear that it's affecting college for you :(

You said that the other night that you almost tried to kill yourself, well firstly, that isn't the answer to anything. I've been in so many miserable spots over the last few years through depression and I tried to kill myself a few times, looking back on it all I am so glad that I never succeeded. One big thing I learnt is that there is always a way to sort problems out, you just have to reach to that light shining at the end of the tunnel, even though that can be bloody hard sometimes :(

I really woudln't worry about making sure everyone else is happy before you think about yourself; put yourself first :)

If you need to talk to anyone, you could go see your GP or talk to someone from VT, we all care and we're all here to listen.

In terms of the candyfloss, you've definately got me stumped on that one :P