I forgot.

[Sapphire]

As some of you know, I am currently working hard to complete my assignments for the deadline tomorrow. The subject I'm studying is psychology and my Grandad, whom I love dearly, is very enthusiastic about psychology.

So, I was typing away yesterday and found myself thinking "I must remember to tell my Grandad about this next time I see him."

The thing is that he died about a year and a half ago. I was so close to him and I managed to forget that he's no longer with us.
I don't know how I feel other than shocked at the fact that I forgot...

[antimonic]

Its fine, i think its more the fact that your getting over his death. Its not that you have forgotten about him, I think your just slowly getting over him.

[Sapphire]

:hug3: Thank you.
That does make sense but at the same time I'm not sure whether it applies to me just yet. I'm having trouble associating me forgetting that he is no longer with us and me getting over the loss.

[BuryYourFlame]

dont worry about it :) this is just part of the process of getting over his death :)

if you ever wanna talk, just send me a PM :)

[OnlyByTheNight.]

I know how you feel. My grandad died 6 months ago and I still find myself thinking about him as if he was still with us.
I stayed with him and my gran and in the evenings when Im sitting down with my gran I still find myself wondering where grandad is when I look over at his favourite chair and see it empty... It always takes a while to hit me that he is dead.
Its tough and it makes you sad but I know that after a while you will start to relise and accept that he is actually gone.
Good luck Carole. You can pm me anytime if you ever need to talk.

[Gumleaf]

i sometimes "forget" that both my grandparents are dead. its not because i have actually forgotten, its because we really connected well and remembering great memories of when i spent time with them makes me forget for a while that they aren't here anymore. i think it might be the same for you carole. your assignment is about something that gave your grandad and you an extra special connection and its not a matter of forgetting his passing, but more a time of reflection where you remember those things that made your bond extra special. and the thing is, there is nothing wrong with that and i'm sure those things that gave you that connection is something you would want to cherish anyways.

[Sapphire]

I don't really know what I think or feel about this but I thank you for the kind and supportive words :)
It is probably a good thing this happened because it reminded me of what I made myself promise when he died. I swore that I would learn lots and lots so that I can tell him all about them when I join him. He'd love it. I just have to make sure that I remember it all! Lol.