Oh god my parents found out from the police.

[Miss Punk]

I'm sorry if this is long, I just need help right now, I'm still slightly drunk and very hungover but I'm awake and don't know what to do.

I got very drunk last night, and was on the way home with my friends and started scratching open my cuts, and basically they tried to stop me but I ran away and sat in the street somewhere trying to cut myself with stones and broken glass. Some random people found me and called an ambulance, and eventually my friends found me too. I don't really remember what happened, but at some point the ambulance arrived and I remember telling the people to get off me when they tried to touch me because I didn't want to go back to A&E again, but then I had my arms pinned around me and a police man telling me I was under arrest for assaulting a paramedic. After a while I was put in handcuffs and my friends gave the police my details, and I was sat in the police car. The two police men took me home and said they were doing me a favour not arresting me, I begged them not to let my parents know but they did.

When I got home I just walked through the door and went upstairs and lay on my bed. My mum came and talked to me, I told her I was drunk and asked her if everything was going to be ok in the morning, and I think she was quite understanding because she said yes it would. She asked to see my arm but didn't mind when I wouldn't show it to her, although I think she saw some of the cuts anyway.

Fuck, I don't know what to do. I feel terrible, especially cos my friends had to look after me again when they already spent 3 hours in A&E with me on Sunday. My mum will want to talk to me sobre, and I don't know what I'm going to say. I hate this. Of all the stupid things I've done when I'm drunk... I really don't know what to do. I need some reassurance.

[STAYING_STRONG4HIM]

Aww...sweetie...I love you no matter what...you will make it through this. I am praying for you tonight. I know your struggling...and that things are hard but drinking and cutting are not going to solve anything...and I know that these have probably just been ways you have coped with things...but they are not good ways to cope and I think you need to find some help sweetie. I am always here for ya...I'm always here if you need to talk...love you...hang in there girl

[Zazu]

You'll be fine, you've got loads of people here at VT who'll be thinking of you.

Drink can make you do things you might not normally do when you're sober; like when you started trying to open up your cuts. At least you had some good friends whocared about you, they called the ambulance for you and made sure you were alright, not many people have friends who are that good. also from what you've said you've got your mum to support you and she seems really loving and understanding :smile:

You got home safe so just try to keep calm about it all, I'm sure everything will be alright with you and your friends and parents. Just don't feel bad about yourself, you couldn't help what you did and I'm sure your mates will understand. When you do talk to your mum, just explain to her that you were drunk and weren't really too sure what you were doing, like I said I'm sure she'll understand.

If you ever need to talk to anyone, we're here to listen :)

Keep safe.

[BuryYourFlame]

it is good that you had friends around who were willing to call the ambulance to get help :)

hopefully this will mean that you get can counseling to help stop the cutting :)

im here if you ever wanna talk :) just shoot me a PM :)

[ErykaInspire.]

It sounds to me that your mom is very understanding, so I don't think she'll be to rash. Just talk to her and try to explain what was going through your head. Have your friends come over to help if you need reassurance.
Like Chequ3r said, there's alot of people on VT that're here to help you the best we can.
PM any of us if you need anything.

[Sapphire]

:hug3: :hug3:

Things will be ok with your mum. I think that if she were going to react badly (shouting, being angry etc) the she would have done that last night. You should be in for a calm, understanding talk.

Please try to avoid getting drunk for a while. Let yourself get a bit more emotionally stable before getting trashed next.

[Beautiful Obsession]

well, your mum obv isnt angry with you, she seems to be understanding so you'v got nothin to worry about. Im sure eveyrthing will be ok and she will get yu the help to stop cutting:)

try to stay sobre for a while so you dont harm yourself anymore bbe.
good luck:D x